Thought Catalog


63 Slutty Confessions That Will Make You Want Sex Immediately

Posted: 06 May 2016 08:30 PM PDT

Illustration by Daniella Urdinlaiz.
Illustration by Daniella Urdinlaiz.

1. He pinned my arms above my head 50 Shades style.

"I went over to this guy’s house to watch a movie, and before we could even pick a movie he pushed me against a wall. We started making out and tearing each other’s clothes off. He pinned my arms above my head, 50 Shades style, and I got hickies all down my chest. He was super hard and moaning so I was about to blow him when his parents called for him…they had been home the entire time…and before he goes to ask his parents what’s up he whispers in my ear, ‘Next time, you’re mine.’ It was SO hot."


2. I kept moaning softly, which made him fuck me harder.

"BFF broke up w GF & I went to see him after talking I went to the toilet I had a white t-shirt no bra on I washed my face & got water on my nipples they were so visible. I asked for a t-shirt & when he came to give it, saw me like that & grabbed me & kissed me I couldn’t resist he fingered me sucked my nipples & fucked me hard. I tried to go home but he grabbed me & fucked me against the wall & sucked my nipples I kept moaning softly which made him fuck me harder."


3. He held me down & whispered in my ear how bad he wanted to fuck me.

"Usually my bf isn’t very rough but he knows that I like it. So tonight he started teasing me, making me wet. He held me down & whispered in my ear how bad he wanted to fuck me. We snuck up into his room, & the second I got there, he pushed me up against the wall. I moaned ‘oh God’ right as he did it. He pulled my panties down, putting his dick on my pussy. Then he grabbed my waist and bent me over and fucked me sooo good, he even made me call him daddy…GOD I love him."


4. Every time I moaned he would fuck me harder.

"So me & my now bf were hanging out. Earlier that day I bought a sexy li’l lingerie dress and matching thing bc he loves lingerie. When we were alone, I took off my clothes and showed him. He bit his lip and groaned, then he just tackled me and we started making out and grinding against each other, and we ended up fucking, it was so rough ugh it was amazing I loved hearing him moan right in my ear and he kept whispering ‘fuck I love you’ and every time I moaned he would fuck me harder…."


5. I started kissing his neck and moving my hips.

"Once I went over to one of my guy friends’ house. we kissed every now and then but never went farther than that. But one day he wouldn’t take his eyes off a stupid video game so I sat on his lap facing him. He smirked but didn’t look away. So I started kissing his neck and moving my hips. After a good 5 minutes of that he has enough of it and pushes me back on the bed and fingers the mess out of me while both his parents were home."


6. Before I even touched her she was dripping from how wet she was.

"I blindfolded my girl as we were both extremely horny and are into kinky shit. While she was blindfolded I laid her down, I took all her clothes off, teased her running my hands up and down and then lightly letting my lips touch her body while moving all over. She was so wet that before I even touched her she was dripping from how wet she was. I have never experienced that before and it was the hottest fucking thing ever, I want it to happen again."


7. He flipped my skirt over my ass, pulled my panties aside and fucked me like an animal.

"I was on a date at the zoo and it started to rain so we ducked under the cover of this gazebo. No one was there so we started making out and he was slowly rubbing my clit under my skirt. Then the rain stopped so we started to walk around. Everyone had pretty much left because of the rain and none of the animals were out so he slammed me against the glass of the gorilla exhibit, flipped my skirt over my ass, pulled my panties aside and fucked me like an animal (; I still masturbate about it."


8. Public sex is exhilarating as hell.

"My FWB and me decided to go to a rave that had tons of foam spewing into the audience. We went right under one of the foam machines where there was a little space created of no foam and he turned me around, pulled down my shorts and panties, and slid his dick into me right there in public. I will never know if anyone actually saw us since we were right under that mountain of foam coming out of the machine, but damn. Public sex is exhilarating as hell."


9. Before I knew it I was on my knees blowing him.

"I was at my best friend’s house, sitting on the kitchen counter, hogging the chips and I had one between my teeth as I was gloating at him. He suddenly leaned in and ate the chip right from my mouth. After the awkward but hot moment of him chewing and swallowing it, we made out. Before I knew it I was on my knees blowing him. He then threw me on his bed and ate me out then fucked me on my hands and knees, pulling my hair and being totally dom. I couldn’t sit right for days."


10. I was screaming I was in so much pleasure and my boyfriend was going crazy and his family heard EVERYTHING.

"So my boyfriend and I started to get a little crazy with the foreplay and he decided to tie me up. It was our first time doing anything like bondage but we decided why not. So he tied me to his bed and blindfolded me and fucked me really hard. I was screaming I was in so much pleasure and my boyfriend was going crazy and his family heard EVERYTHING. We didn’t know his family decided to come home. After we were done and come out of his room, his mom tells me I have cute screams…"


11. I was soaked and we ended up fucking for nearly 3 hours straight.

"My boyfriend and I went months without seeing each other because of the distance, but then one night at around 2:00 in the morning, he drove to my house. I snuck him into my basement when my mom was in the room above us. We were on the couch when we started to make out which led to him playing with my pussy. He fingered me as he sucked on my boobs. I was soaked and we ended up fucking for nearly 3 hours straight. I came sooo much and I had to try and be quiet with my mom so close."


12. My face was in the pillow and his face in my hair to keep quiet as we whispered moans.

"Me with my boyfriend were chilling on the bed. His friend was like 4 steps away concentrating on a game on his phone. We were lying next to each other like spooning. And suddenly my boyfriend started rubbing me and pulled me closer and closer. Under the blanket we pulled off our pants and he started to fuck me slowly and then faster. My face was in the pillow and his face in my hair to keep quiet as we whispered moans. It was so hot and exciting. His friend never noticed as we asked later."


13. I heard the shower curtain open and I suddenly felt his boner between my butt cheeks.

"I was taking a shower while my bf was in the bathroom and when I was rinsing the shampoo off my hair I heard the shower curtain open and I suddenly felt his boner between my butt cheeks we started scrubbing each other and I started to stroke him, I went down on him for a good 10 min & he picked me up and started fucking me in his arms, he felt so good & I started cumming on him & I made his dick so wet & he made me deep throat him & he cummed in my mouth, I didn’t know cum could taste good lol."


14. We hopped into the shower and washed each other’s bodies; we made out and started to go at each other’s wet bodies.

"I have a friend, and she was pretty straight. And one day I decided to tell her about how I liked girls. She was startled at first, but then a few days later she started touching me and getting all feely with me. It was kinda hot. One day after getting back from the pool she wanted to shower together. We hopped into the shower and washed each other’s bodies; we made out and started to go at each other’s wet bodies. I fingered her until she came. To this day on, we fuck just for the hell of it."


15. I went down on my girlfriend for the first time while my mom and grandma were sitting and chatting right down the hall.

"I went down on my girlfriend for the first time while my mom and grandma were sitting and chatting right down the hall—we turned up our favorite playlist so they couldn’t hear her moans, and she orgasmed at least 5 or 6 times…if my grandma had opened my closed bedroom door to say hello and seen my girlfriend’s gorgeous naked body with legs wrapped around my face, I am pretty sure she would have dropped dead right then and there."


16. I blew him and then we just cuddled for a while.

"I have always had feelings for my best friend but he was dating this girl and she went to Greece for the whole summer and they broke up. He came over to my house crying and we just watched movies. Halfway into Frozen he looks at me and says, ‘Fuck it’s been in front of me all along’ and he started kissing me and his mouth moved down to my pussy and he ate me out and I blew him and then we just cuddled for a while and we’ve been dating since July 16th 2015."


17. He made me suck his cock until he came on my face.

"My ex dumped me last June and I was salty about it so when we got back to school I decided to tease the crap out of him. At a football game in the fall I wore booty shorts and a visible G-string, and when I passed by he literally stopped mid-conversation with his friends and stared. He texted me to meet him in the locker room and he grabbed my throat telling me that what I did wasn’t fair (he’s kinky), then made me suck his cock until he came on my face. Needless to say my plan was a success."


18. I put her in the back seat and fucked her so hard.

"Last week I was at the gym running on the treadmill when this girl came over & ran next to me. I accidentally got a boner and she must have seen it cuz I thought I heard her giggle a little. Feeling embarrassed, I ended my run early and left. When I was walking back to my car, she saw me & ran over & and started talking to me. At my car she nailed me against it, and put her hand down my shorts, pulled my dick out, and gave me a blowjob. Then I put her in the back seat and fucked her so hard."


19. He tossed me on the bed, ripped off my clothes, kissed me and fucked me with his hand on my throat.

"So last week I got to spend the week with my LDR boyfriend and on our last day we were home alone watching TV and cuddling when I asked him if he wanted to make out for a little bit. We started making out while he was touching me and he grabbed me, picked me up, and carried me upstairs, tossed me on the bed, ripped off my clothes, kissed me and fucked me with his hand on my throat and I was so loud. Made his back bleed and couldn’t really walk after."


20. Every time I heard him moan & say ‘mmm’ I completely melted.

"My bf & I were supposed to go out & watch movies, but we made a quick stop at his place so he could grab his wallet. We walked into his room & next thing I knew he picked me up & pinned me against the wall all while still kissing me. He carried me to the bed & started pulling my pants off. His ‘let me eat you out for 10 minutes’ turned into eating me out all night long. Every time I heard him moan & say ‘mmm’ I completely melted. His head game is just OMG. Returned the fav & gave him sloppy head."


21. She unbuttoned my pants and started sucking my dick.

"A girl in the school play with me was hitting on me, so I decided to give her what she wanted. One night we were the only two left after rehearsals. We were in the costume room and ended up passionately making out. She unbuttoned my pants and started sucking my dick. We heard someone walking around, so we went into one of the handicap washrooms and locked the door. I put her on the sink counter and ate her out. I covered her mouth while I fucked her on the ground because she was moaning too loud."


22. He fingered me so much that I squirted twice, so much I was sitting in a puddle.

"I went on this last-minute Tinder date with this guy. We ate, played a bunch of arcade games, sat in his truck talking for hours in the pouring rain. We talked about everything including knowing we wanted to rip each other’s clothes off. He fingered me so much that I squirted twice, so much I was sitting in a puddle. I rode him until I came and collapsed from exhaustion. He made me keep going until I came again and again until I couldn’t speak or breathe or move. Best sex I’ve ever had in my life."


23. I’m quiet and we cum together amazingly.

"Me and my bf stayed at his friend’s house, in the morning we decided to shower together as he had this rainfall shower so anyway things get heated & we’re rubbing each other all over & I get on my knees & start sucking his dick & geez I was so ready to be fucked. So he gets on the floor & I’m on top having the nicest sex and his friend knocks on the door to tell us he’s made us some breakfast so to go down, but I wasn’t about to stop so he puts his hand over my mouth so I’m quiet and we cum together amazingly."


24. He pinned me down and ate me out till I couldn’t take it anymore.

"One night me and my ex got back to his house after a party. Seconds after getting into his room we began making out, kissing each other’s necks, grinding on each other, and teasing the fuck out of each other. then we both began ripping our clothes off and he pinned me down and ate me out till I couldn’t take it anymore. He then picked me up, threw everything off his desk and fucked the shit out of me. I think I broke the record for amount of orgasms in one night. Fuck, I miss that sex."


25. We fucked for two hours and he came not once not twice but three times in a row.

"I reconnected with a guy I went to high school with a couple months ago and last night we decided to hook up. I went over his place and as soon as I sat down on his bed we started making out. We took off our clothes and he wouldn’t stop saying how wet and tight I was. We fucked for two hours and he came not once not twice but three times in a row. He’s only the second guy I’ve ever slept with, which goes to show you don’t need to be a slut to put on a good show."


26. Her moans were like music to my ears.

"Me and my best friend have always had a ‘thing’ and no one suspects it because we’re both girls. We have always been into guys but something about her attracts me to her in a sexual way. We would always kiss on the cheek until one day we kissed on the lips and since then things have been getting heated and about a week ago we legit had sex and her moans were like music to my ears I felt her pussy opening and she would just bite me to stop herself from yelling b/c my parents were home. :)"


27. I tried so hard to stay quiet; I had to bite his neck to stop from moaning, it was so hot.

"So last night I went out with some friends and we ended up staying at this guy’s house. One of my friends stayed in a bed with the guy whose house it was, and that left me and my friend with the other guy, and slept in the middle. Then early morning I feel the guy start touching my inner thigh and rubbing my clit really gently until he starts to finger me and we hook up, all while my friend was next to us. I tried so hard to stay quiet; I had to bite his neck to stop from moaning, it was so hot."


28. In the space of 2.5 hours, we had fucked three times.

"So my boyfriend and I had decided to spend the entire day together in bed being lazy. It was about 6:45am when he got to mine, when I opened the door he kissed me passionately, pushing me up against a wall, which made me soo wet. We stumbled to my room and started fucking, he made me cum hard 3 times. In the space of 2.5 hours, we had fucked three times. Later on in the evening we both wanted to go again but we’d fucked so hard that we were both exhausted. My family was home the entire time."


29. Me & this guy were slow-dancing in my room to soft music & he pulled me closer to where I could feel his boner.

"Me & this guy were slow-dancing in my room to soft music & he pulled me closer to where I could feel his boner. We slowly started to grind & he was kissing my shoulder to my neck and he took off my dress & slipped his hands down my panties and started to finger me then I kissed down his stomach and sucked his dick. We lay on the floor & he kissed me up to my nipples and went down to my pussy & ate me out & after I had an orgasm he got on top and started thrusting in me…I let him cum in me."


30. Can’t believe I fucked my best friend.

"My best friend had just been dumped by his gf so I went over to his house to hang out & be there for him. He put on Netflix & he joked about ‘Netflix & chill’ but I laughed it off. We’re on his bed and we start getting closer & then we start cuddling. Then I’m kissing on his neck. He pulls me closer & we start making out. I rubbed his dick & he starts fingering me. And I went down on him. We fucked and the sex was so good. We fucked until we both came. Can’t believe I fucked my best friend."


31. I took her home a dripping mess.

"I met this girl on Tinder and we instantly connected, we ended up going to a movie for our first date. I normally don’t move fast but I slowly slid my hand up her leg under her dress and started to finger her; she reached under my panties and gave me a handjob: teasing each other, so afterwards we fucked in my car in a nearby, semi-crowded McDonald’s parking lot. She begged me to cum inside her. I took her home a dripping mess, the next morning I woke her up by fingering her pussy in her sleep."


32. The windows were so foggy and that was our first time.

"My boyfriend picked me up before school and we couldn’t agree on what to eat so we parked outside a random neighborhood and house. I got mad at him for saying something dumb and went to the backseat, then he followed. He wanted to say sorry and I wouldn’t let him so he began fingering me over my yoga pants and I began moaning then he took them off and ate me out. Afterwards, I begged him to stick the tip in or I wouldn’t forgive him. The windows were so foggy and that was our first time."


33. He was so perfect about it, I swear I felt myself melt.

"I’ve been hooking up with this guy in the military, and last week he asked me to stay the night with him, on base. I did, and we ended up falling asleep…or so I thought. I was suddenly woken up by kisses and soft bites on my neck. He was so perfect about it, I swear I felt myself melt. He rolled me over and started kissing down my stomach, and hips. He went down on me, and I couldn’t take it any longer. We hooked up, and still do to this very day. Best sex of my life, with him."


34. I had to keep my face shoved in a pillow just to keep the noises down.

"My boyfriend’s roommate is female. She is still in school, so she is always doing homework at the kitchen table. We went into his room, and he got super frisky. Needless to say, we fucked and it was the single most embarrassing thing ever. He is not quiet at all and neither am I. I had to keep my face shoved in a pillow just to keep the noises down. Also when he goes hard, his headboard hits the wall. When I left I couldn’t even make eye contact with her. Worth it."


35. Let’s just say my virginity is out the goddamn window.

"My friend’s really conservative so I don’t have anyone to share this to. So last night my boyfriend and I had a fight so I decided to go to his house and apologize only to find him shirtless and moaning under his sheets. I realized what he was doing soon after and got horny. So I stripped down, and made out with him in my panties only and grinded on his hard-on. He flipped me over and ate me out then it escalated pretty quickly and let’s just say my virginity is out the goddamn window."


36. I orgasmed 3 times while moaning really loud.

"I went to my best friend’s house on Saturday and we were watching a movie, spooning. I suddenly felt him getting hard on my back and pushed my ass against him, he pulled my hair, grinding on me really hard and asked ‘do you like that?’ I moaned ‘yes’ and turned around. He kissed me like nobody had ever kissed me before, and kissed me down my stomach, until he got to my pussy and ate me out. I orgasmed 3 times while moaning really loud, I think his parents heard."


37. I came 6x.

"Accidentally heard my hot best friend (always liked him) jacking off on the phone; he was moaning & even said my name. Went to his place & start torturing him. At one point, he pulls my hand & says, wtf are u doin’ to me? & I kiss him. Led to make outs, a blowjob, fingering me, eating me out on the sofa til I came 6x. He tells me how much he’s dreamt about this, how hot I am, how much he loved me, how he hated seeing me with other guys. Had sex all night long all over his house. 7 months ❤."


38. He took off my clothes before I could even lie down.

"My boyfriend and I went to a party one night and decided to distance ourselves from all our friends. We were sitting on the stairs making out, and next thing I know I’m straddling and grinding on him. He was so hard and he whispered into my ear how we need a room bc he wanted to just fuck me. We found a room and he took off my clothes before I could even lie down. He was so rough and he had to cover my mouth bc I was screaming every time he thrusted it inside me. We went three rounds that night ~"


39. He slipped his dick into me and fucked me so hard I came 4x+!

"So today I was on my mum’s computer and my bf comes in looking slightly sad, I asked him what was wrong and he grabbed my hand and led me to our bedroom. He pushing me on to the bed and started cuddling me, I felt his dick against me and it was so hard. I reached down and whispered ‘is someone horny?’ and he cutely hid in the blanket. Next thing I knew he was fingering me and sucking on my boobs, he slipped his dick into me and fucked me so hard I came 4x+! I was shaking so hard, omg best sex!❤"


40. Oh god the sex was better than anything I’ve ever experienced.

"Last month I was at my best friend’s house and we were a bit tipsy so as I was walking over to his bed to sit with him I slipped and fell onto his lap so we started making out and I could feel him getting so hard. He picked me up and set me down and pushed me up against the wall in his room and told me that I was his and told me he wouldn’t fuck me unless I called him daddy so I did and oh god the sex was better than anything I’ve ever experienced. 10/10 would do it all again."


41. I fucked the shit out of her for a good 10-15 minutes; she was moaning so and loud her pussy was so wet.

"Me and my gf were just laying there listening to music cuddling naked… Her friend texted her and told her that she was on the way to pick her up… We were like fuck it let’s fuck… She rode me for a bit and then I told her to let me hit it from the back… I fucked the shit out of her for a good 10-15 minutes; she was moaning so and loud her pussy was so wet… We switched to missionary and I fucked her until I came… When she left my house she told me that she came so many times."


42. He spanked me, flipped me over and fucked me so hard.

"Confession: I’m Sir’s Kitten, which means I do exactly what he says when he says it, and of course I get rewarded! One day Sir asked me to stop fidgeting, but I was too horny, so Sir had to punish me. He tied me to our bed and blindfolded me. He started teasing me and rubbing me over my underwear before fingering me. As I was cumming he stopped and left me, and I couldn’t finish myself off. When he saw me trying he spanked me, flipped me over and fucked me so hard. Sir is good to me ❤."


43. I was getting kinda loud so he covers my mouth.

"I live with a guy and a girl. My girl roommate’s boyfriend was over and I was just hanging out with the guy watching YouTube videos. I’m lying on my stomach and all of a sudden he puts his arm across my back to hold me down. He slips his hand in my shorts and starts to rub my pussy and then slides a few fingers in. I was getting kinda loud so he covers my mouth. I came 4x before I ran to get a condom and rode him until he came."


44. I unzipped his pants and pulled out his big cock and gave him a blowjob while he clawed at my ass and squeezed my boobs.

"Last night my boyfriend and I went to see a movie. The movie sucked pretty bad and I was bored so I decided to distract him. I started rubbing him over his jeans until he was moaning and begging for me to go under. I unzipped his pants and pulled out his big cock and gave him a blowjob while he clawed at my ass and squeezed my boobs. Pretty sure the people a couple rows ahead heard him moaning but we both agree that it was the highlight of the entire movie experience."


45. We fucked each other’s brains out till he came.

"There was this time me and my boyfriend were on this long drive back home from meeting his family in another state so it was super late. I was so horny and we were almost home so I pushed my seat back and grabbed his hand and had him finger me. I came so many times and I was so loud. Finally he pulled over in this empty parking lot and I got on top of him in the driver’s seat and we fucked each other’s brains out till he came. He always tells me that was his favorite time."


46. He took me from behind and spanked me.

"A few months ago, my boyfriend and I went to the park and walked down to a dried-up creek where the people in the park couldn’t see. We started making out and I felt his dick getting hard pressed against me. He started fingering me under my dress and then turned me around so I could put my hands up against a tree while he took me from behind and spanked me. He had to cover my mouth so I wouldn’t make any noise while people walked by above us. He still begs for us to go back to the park."


47. He fingered me and gave me hickeys on my boobs.

"There was this one time I was wearing a pretty mini-skirt and I was lying down on the couch, my bf came over and kissed me with his hands slowly caressing my hips. As his hands went down to my inner thighs, I almost moaned but he quickly put his hand over my mouth cause his little sister was home. He fingered me and gave me hickeys on my boobs. Later that night, we confessed and I said I loved it when guys are dominant. Next day, he spanked me so hard while pulling my hair and choking me."


48. I sucked him off right then and there. No one noticed.

"So me and my boyfriend were on a bus with people sitting all around us. Snuggling in a blanket, he reached down and started to finger me hard. Biting my lip as hard as possible so not to moan, I laid down on his lap positioning myself so I could give him a handjob. Going as quick and smooth as possible, I jerked him off hard as I played with his balls as well. After a couple of minutes, he whispered into my ear that he was about to cum and I sucked him off right then and there. No one noticed."


49. It was so hard to stay quiet with three other people in the room half-asleep.

"One night I went over to my friend’s (who I’ve been friend’s with for a while) house with a couple of my friends to watch some movies. We were watching a horror movie and we started innocently cuddling but he keep teasing me and eventually he started fingering me but it was so hard to stay quiet with three other people in the room half-asleep, he put his hand over my mouth but when he moaned in my ear I almost lost it and blew our cover."


50. He shoved his hand down my pants and gave me so many hickeys I melted.

"At a friend’s party I hooked up with one of my friend’s friends just in the backyard, but later we were alone again out the front of the house and we made out with me straddling him in the bricks, him on top of me on the grass, kissing my neck and everything. When I was kissing his neck he groaned ‘fuck’ and it was hottest thing ever I swear, he shoved his hand down my pants and gave me so many hickeys I melted and he kept stopping and looking down at me and smile best hookup ever omg."


51. I wanted him to finger me while my friend & her date were gone.

"I’m insanely shy with anxiety. But honestly, I’d do the kinkiest, hottest shit ever if I had a boyfriend & I was comfortable. I met this boy recently, we’ve been talking for a few weeks on & off, we recently went on a double date. Him & I were super shy & we just laughed & talked and we had an amazing time. But in all honestly, I wanted him to finger me while my friend & her date were gone. If only I had the confidence to take him to a separate room cause fuckkk… Him in general makes me wet."


52. I was screaming ’cause his cock felt just so amazing.

"I was cooking for my FWB while he was watching a movie in the living room when he suddenly came up & hugged me from behind kissing my neck & making me go mad. He took my hand & led me to the bed saying he wanted to fuck & started making out with me. He went down on me & made me cum several times until I begged him to fuck me which he then did. He fucked me so hard I was screaming ’cause his cock felt just so amazing. He fucked me for so long & didn’t let me go needless to say I burned the food. Just so hot!"


53. Finally he fucked me hard till we both came.

"So I broke up with my ex and went through a bad stage, my friend came round to my apartment with 2 guys and alcohol to cheer me up. I had an instant connection with one of the guys and we all played drinking games. My friend disappeared and it was just me and this guy alone. He picked me up and wrapped my legs ’round his waist and kissed my neck as he carried me to my bed, all night he teased me and left hickeys all over my body, till finally he fucked me hard till we both came. Best sex ever."


54. I desperately pulled his cock out of his jeans.

"Second date, before my boyfriend and I were official we went for a walk. We went to this little area that’s far enough away from through traffic, however right next to the train tracks, and a parking lot. As soon as we got there he kissed me really deeply and pulled me close grabbing my ass, then said ‘let’s switch gender roles’ and went down on me. After I came moaning loudly, I desperately pulled his cock out of his jeans. Trains and cars going by, he fucked me so hard, after that he had me."


55. We didn’t realize we legitimately had phone sex until the next day.

"Me and my long-distance bf have been together for a while now and we are both always horny so we have phone sex a lot. The first time we did it we were on the phone for hours before hand and just both started to get horny so we started touching ourselves. We both started moaning and grew hornier by hearing each other’s moans. I orgasmed and my bf heard me moan really loud and orgasmed from me and we both orgasmed simultaneously, we didn’t realize we legitimately had phone sex until the next day."


56. It felt like one giant continuous orgasm.

"I’m friends with a teaching assistant at my university and the other night we got really high together and then he went down on me and licked me so good and fingered me until I had orgasm after orgasm. I lost count after 5. It felt like one giant continuous orgasm. I returned the favor and gave him a long BJ till he was really close to cumming and then I went on top of him until I came a couple more times. He then flipped me over and fucked me harder until we both came. We fell asleep still high."


57. After an hour and multiple orgasms I snuck out the window.

"Recently I went over to a friend’s house. He and I always had sexual tension but had never acted on it. This time when I sat on his bed before I knew it he had pinned me down and was kissing me. I have never been fucked so thoroughly all my life. Halfway through I had to hide in the closet because his mom got home (she didn’t know I was there). When she finally went downstairs we continued. After an hour and multiple orgasms I snuck out the window. Best sex ever."


58. I had to clench my jaw so hard to not scream.

"My mom rented an apartment over the weekend for her to spend time with my bf and I, but it turns out there was only 1 room (mom didn’t realize). It had 2 beds, a double + single. Mom took the single, and that night, mom fell asleep and my BF was getting all touchy and he started fingering me extremely hard, I had to clench my jaw so hard to not scream and then we ended up fucking with my mom snoring next to us. It was odd but the thrill was gr8, condom was still hidden under the bed when we left."


59. We fucked until cum was dripping down my thighs and all over my back.

"My daddy and I finally got my tail butt plug in the mail and we haven’t stop using it since! The first night, I stripped naked and got on all fours with my ass in the air just for him. He teased me with his tongue as he put lube on my new toy and slipped in it, a gasping moan escaping my mouth. Taking his hard cock in hand, he rubbed his tip all over my pussy and slowly put it in, whispering how tight his kitten was. We fucked until cum was dripping down my thighs and all over my back."


60. He grabbed my boobs and ass hard and sucked my nipples.

"I was once at my friend’s house where he was teaching me how to play video games although I had no interest in learning so I kept on stealing the controller and hiding it under me or just getting his hands on my boobs. We were laughing so hard and teasing each other, he started tickling me until I lay down and he got over me and then just whispered ‘oh fuck it’ and we started to make out and he grabbed my boobs and ass hard and sucked my nipples, we stopped when we heard his parents get home."


61. He flipped me over and grinded on me while holding me down, kissing me.

"Last night I was making out with one of my friends. I grinded on him, he had his eyes closed and was softly moaned every so often. I loved seeing him like that. He kept kissing and biting my neck and it felt soo good. I would gasp every time he’d kiss me right under my jaw, I just couldn’t help it. He was laying on me while I was on my stomach, he put his hand over my mouth and was kissing me in that spot. I was so turned on, He flipped me over and grinded on me while holding me down, kissing me."


62. I started squirting all over the couch.

"One night me and this guy I was talking to at the time were downstairs watching a movie while his family was upstairs. I ended up getting really horny, so I starting giving him head. He looked at me and said ‘your turn,’ then he ripped my pants off and fingered me so good, I started squirting all over the couch, my body was shaking. Then I started to ride him and his brother walked downstairs, so I put the blanket over us but his cock was deep inside me while we were talking to him."


63. He slipped his hand down my pants & started gently fingering me.

"Me & my boyfriend went out to eat with some friends. He grabbed my leg and kept moving higher & higher until he was at the top of my leggings. He then slipped his hand down my pants & started gently fingering me. I was having normal conversations with my friends & trying not to make it obvious. They never knew hehe. When we were all done eating, me & him went to his car & went to a secluded place to have sex. It was great:-)" TC mark

14 Things To Remember About Loving Someone With Anxiety

Posted: 06 May 2016 08:00 PM PDT

Franca Gimenez
Franca Gimenez

1. There is no “snapping out of it.” Believe it; if we knew a magic cure for not feeling our hearts race at the rate hummingbirds flap their wings, we’d do it. If we knew how to not freak out over traffic, or when the phone rings, or simply because we woke up feeling weird that day, trust that we’d take advantage of such a magic cure. But it doesn’t exist. There’s not a quick fix for feeling anxious; often you just have to ride it out.

2. Everyone has different coping mechanisms that work for them. Some people simply need quiet, some tea, and a nap and they’ll be good to go. Others need to be distracted with jokes and friends. Some people just have to ride the wave until the wave decides to be done. Everyone is different and the best way to know what someone needs? Ask.

3. Anxiety isn’t rational. Again — trust us! We know! We know how ridiculous it is that we’re getting panicky over something like going to the Verizon store or grocery shopping. We. know. But anxiety doesn’t know. And anxiety is the one controlling the emotions. You never have to let us know how dumb it because not only is that completely belittling and emotionally unsupportive, it’s redundant. We have recognized the irrationality of anxiety since our first panic attack, I promise.

4. But just because it’s not rational, doesn’t mean it’s invalid. Just because it’s walking a different route to the office making us a shaky mess and not an immediate, tangible threat doesn’t make the emotion less justified. Emotions are allowed, emotions are okay. Even the bad ones.

5. It’s better to ask questions than to offer suggestions. Unless we specifically ask, “What do you think I should do?” it’s not usually a good idea to tell us how to handle ourselves in the middle of an anxiety day. Instead, ask what we need. Ask what you can do. Ask how you can help. Nine times out ten the thing we’ll be most appreciative about is the fact that you thought to ask in the first place.

6. Yes, panic attacks really are that bad. Basically you feel like you’re dying so no, it’s not just crying really loudly.

7. Sometimes someone needs to be alone, sometimes that’s the last thing they need. Everyone is different and even within the same person, anxiety can be totally different from day to day. Sometimes it’s just a nagging voice in your head and other days you’re rendered completely useless on the couch. It just depends. You have to roll with the punches and understand that it’s never going to be an exact formula or science.

8. It’s okay to laugh about things. After the fact! When someone is calm and joking about how the ATM sent them into a panic you can absolutely joke too. It makes it easier, it makes it feel less hush-hush, it takes away the power of anxiety. It’s okay to joke, really.

9. Everyone is dealt a hand, anxiety just happens to be their hand. I’m sure you have problems too. No one is perfect, this is just their imperfection.

10. When someone chooses to confide in you about their anxiety, it’s a big deal. We’re sharing something that is incredibly personal and often really embarrassing. It means we value you and respect you and most importantly, trust you. It’s a huge step for us.

11. No one chooses to have anxiety. No one wants this. No one would willingly have anxiety to be trendy. Saying that and accusing that is patronizing and unacceptable.

12. Sometimes there is no trigger, there’s just anxiety. Anxiety sometimes just decides it wants to show up for absolutely no reason at all. And honestly? When that happens it’s almost MORE frustrating than when there’s a visible trigger. You want there to be a why, but there isn’t and it’s just the worst. Again, you just have to roll with it.

13. It’s not going to be forever. No panic attack goes on forever, no one deals with anxiety every moment of every day. Yes, some days (even weeks) are worse than others. But it will end. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.

14. Patience is often the best gift you can give. Just be there. Understand us and love us anyway. That’s always enough. TC mark

I Was A Really Shitty Husband And I Didn’t Realize It Until Too Late

Posted: 06 May 2016 07:00 PM PDT

Twenty20, NickBulanovv
Twenty20, NickBulanovv

I was a shitty husband.

And it's not because I'm a massive jerk, or abusive, or particularly difficult to get along with.

I was a shitty husband because I didn't respect my wife's thoughts and feelings about things I mistakenly believed didn't matter. When two people disagree, both think they're right. Which makes the other person wrong.

But sometimes there is no "right." Sometimes, there is no "wrong."

You liked the movie. She didn't. She likes salsa dancing. You don't. Nobody is right or wrong. But we treat one another like that's the case. That’s what I think and believe and feel is right. Therefore, you must be wrong.

I was a shitty husband because I promised her in front of hundreds of people we knew that I would love and honor her all the days of my life. In good times, and in bad. And then I didn't do that. I didn't do it in the bad times because I didn't "feel" like it. Because it wasn't easy or convenient.

For years, I put my wants and needs ahead of her's. Not for the "big things," which is all I thought mattered. I put me first in all the "little things." Disagreements about housework, passively leaving her to manage our schedules, and the logistics of caring for our son.

She tried to talk to me about it. But I didn't listen.

I thought she was nagging. Complaining. Being needy. Being a bitch.

I thought because I was a nice person, and that I'd made sacrifices for her, that I was a good husband. I thought because I didn't do a bunch of bad things some guys do that I was a good husband. I didn't realize it until much too late: Good men can be bad husbands. Just like good men can be bad at designing bridges, or bad at water-color painting, or bad at water skiing.

We don't want to hear bad things being said about us. Especially from those we believe we sacrifice daily for. So when we do, we don't listen. We justify our behavior. Rationalize it. Get defensive. And angry.

We disagree with them, and tell them they're wrong. Sometimes we tell them they're crazy. Sometimes we raise our voices or call them a name.

Divorce is the great social crisis of our time, and not enough people are talking about it. Two good, smart, nice people marry voluntarily, and deny it though they will, it's a coin toss as to whether they'll be married a decade later.

I tell my story so that maybe other people won't get divorced like me. TC mark

Read This If You’re A 20-Something And Feeling Completely Lost

Posted: 06 May 2016 06:00 PM PDT

simonewalt
simonewalt

You have twenty years behind you, but you still have your whole life ahead of you. This, right here, is okay. The moment you realize you don't know what to do, is okay. You are exactly where you’re supposed to be. There is no deadline, timeline, schedule. Figuring things out will come in handy, but only if you believe in yourself. Stop telling yourself you cannot. Start small; start little. You must know that it is not going to be easy, but it is possible.

Seeking advice is fine, but every decision, every act, every move you make is something you need to choose for yourself.

Take aspiration from those who you look up to, but never, ever compare your progress. There is no one better, or lesser than you who are. There is only you. Just because others are doing it right now doesn’t mean that you have to do it also. Just because others did it first doesn’t make your experience any less of a shot. Go at your own pace.

You’re going to do just great. This is not a race. The more you try to catch up with others, the more you are going to see yourself left out. You only have one maze to figure out, and it is your own. Pressure is good. Too much pressure could be bad. You are going to be just fine, but this doesn’t mean that you have to be complacent. Nothing is going to work if you don’t move. If you don’t try new things, if you keep yourself in that safe, little zone you’ve always been in your whole life.

You cannot keep following the path of others so much that you forget to create your own.

Relax. You are also going to travel. You’ll go from one city to another, converse in multiple languages, explore districts to countries. You’ll experience every culture at its finest. And when you do, you’re going to meet people who will deeply impact you. You’re going to converse with people who are different from you, similar to you – people who you like or might not like. There will be people who will belittle you and encourage you, who will believe in you and help you, and you’re going to learn from each one of them. You’re going to get to know them. Hear their stories. What frightens them, what motivates them, what keeps them going. And you’re going to find out that there is more to life than any of this.

You will feel pain, sadness, discomfort. But you will also feel alive, exuberant, human. Sometimes you will fuck up and make mistakes. You are going to fail, be misunderstood, get ragged. You’re going to get tired. But you are also going to realize that it is okay to fail. You will be telling yourself to rest on days you lack motivation, feel the ugliest, or have the smallest of hope, but you are going to acknowledge that giving up won’t be your best option. You are most likely going to lose yourself in the process, but you are also going to find yourself there. You are going to create something for yourself and for the people you love. You’re going to tear yourself into pieces pursuing after what you want, and learn to love yourself for it. And it will be the best damn thing ever.

You are going to fall in love. One day. It could be a few years from now. Or maybe tomorrow. Next week. Or who knows when. You are going to make yourself believe in love again. Because you are not as cold as ice as you would like to think. You are a product of combined heartaches, growing wisdom, and rational hope. Can you count how many times you told yourself and other people you are never going to fall in love again? Can you count how many times you lied and knew it? You are young, and I don’t need to say more.

You are going to have a love-hate relationship with life.

You are going to be miserable for days, but on other days, you are going to feel so in love with life. You are going to have to experience everything this life has to offer. I hope you experience it to the fullest. And I don’t just mean sky diving, or meeting David Beckham and Harry Styles, or getting stoned, or getting VIP passes to a basketball game which you have zero knowledge about. You are going to breathe and feel your heart pumping your blood, you will feel goosebumps at every romantic movie or rock concert you see. You are going to feel pain when a close friend goes away. You will feel joy when you finally get offered that job you have always wanted. You are going to feel broken when you see your loved one’s cry. You will feel gleeful when you kiss someone for the first time.

You are going to find out that no experience is identical to anyone else’s. Some are relatable, but no two experiences are utterly, downright the same. That is why it is important to have your own. Not only will they teach you the best and most striking lessons, they will also make you feel alive. And truth be told, I don’t think anything really compares.

This is literally a journey you are supposed to be taking. Consider yourself the driver, and your friends and family the passengers. No matter what other people tell you, no matter which way your passengers tell you to go, you are in charge of something that they aren’t – you are in charge of the wheel. You are the driver of your own car the same way you are a passenger in another person's car. Make every ride worthwhile.

You’re twenty. Stop doubting yourself. What could go wrong? TC mark

10 Old Fashioned Dating Habits We Should Make Cool Again

Posted: 06 May 2016 05:00 PM PDT

Twenty20 / alesha_macarosha
Twenty20 / alesha_macarosha

1. Coming to the door to pick someone up.

I think we’ve all had it with the incredibly unromantic “here” text, and meeting up always seems to be more casual and platonic than the alternative. Of course, meeting someone from online or any circumstance like that would probably be the exception to this rule, but generally: the 30 seconds it takes to get out of a car or cab and knock on the door makes a huge difference.

2. Trying to dress really nicely for a date.

“Nicely” means different things for different people, so I think it’s just a matter of putting effort into how you put yourself together to go out with someone. It’s not about wearing suits and petticoats again, but just realizing that, whether or not we like to accept it, appearance does count for something, and we should do our best to make sure that our appearance says something about us, in whatever way we’d like it to.

3. Bringing flowers or other tokens of affection to the first date.

Now, many lucky ladies (and some men) I know get this regularly, and in fact, I have myself as well, but only ever with people I’d been dating for a while. I think there’s something to be said for bringing flowers to the door on your first date. It’s become uncool because it’s forward and it’s a gesture that confirms their interest, but we should definitely get past that idea and worry more about how we’re going to let someone know we really do care and appreciate that they want to spend time with us.

4. Going dancing that’s not grinding on a grimy club floor.

Whatever happened to this? Dancing for the sake of dancing, like fun, not essentially sex on a dance floor dancing. What’s a better way to literally shake off nerves than seeing them bust a really dorky move on a dance floor? And the art of slow dancing has generally been lost, though I’ve been one to do it in my living room with my slightly coerced significant other, and I’ll tell you he’s said on numerous occasions it ended up being one of the most romantic nights we had together.

5. Straightforwardly asking someone out and not calling it “hanging out.”

Or, as is very popular these days, “talking.” “Oh, we’re just… talking.” As in, seeing one another and speaking frequently as to get to know each other? So… dating? We’ve found these really convenient ways to skirt around the issue of having to put our hearts on the line, but honestly, it just ends up being messy and confusing for all parties involved. There’s no need to go back to the idea of courting or anything, unless you want to, but simply being direct about whether or not you’d like to go on a date with someone is a truly lost art, one that really shouldn’t be.

6. Additionally, being clear about when you’re “going steady.”

Oh, the awkward, “so… are we… you know… what are we?” talk. Classic. We should go back to asking one another if the other person would like to “go steady” or something. There’s something about asking them if they’d like to rather than assuming that you are or aren’t anything that’s just very cute, in my opinion.

7. Romantic gestures like writing poems.

Writing poems may not be for you, I know mine would look something like “Roses are red, violets are blue, I hate poetry but I love you.” I literally just made that up thank you please quote me when you inevitably post that gem on Tumblr. But seriously, like a handwritten letter in the mail or just surprising them with something you made even if it looks like the macaroni necklace you made when you were 5 is cute just because you tried and were thinking of them.

8. Turning electronics off and just being with one another.

I’m not sure there is anything worse than the person who picks up their phone and starts staring at it in the middle of dinner, or at any point while you’re together and having a conversation. I’m not anti-technology here (hello, I work for the Internet) but I am saying that there comes a time to turn it off and disconnect and remember what actually matters. People.

9. The general concept of asking permission for things.

It used to be principle for people to say: oh, when can I see you? Or, when could I call you? Rather than just assuming they can at any point. But I think that old concept could be applied to our modern world by just assuming that, unless told otherwise, you should ask permission to you know, touch them anywhere, take them out, call them at a certain time, etc. Once you’re in a relationship these things usually don’t require asking anymore, but some do, especially when it comes to sexuality. I once knew a person who said that they asked permission before so much as touching a girl’s thigh, and that always stuck with me.

10. Not assuming sex is to be had at any point in time.

Now, I’m certainly not saying it should go back to being a taboo that’s unspoken of, but we certainly shouldn’t expect it from someone on the third date, on the first date, because they’re being flirty, because you know they’re into you, or even because they agreed to go out with you. A date does not have to be a precursor to sex, and you shouldn’t be disappointed if it isn’t because you should never assume that it will be. It depends on the person you’re with and what they want to do. TC mark

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No Matter What You’re Going Through, Know That I Am Here

Posted: 06 May 2016 04:00 PM PDT

Look catalog
Look catalog

I won't try to say that I understand what you're going through because, honestly, you're the only one who knows exactly how you're feeling. But I can try to understand you, in my own way, in a feeble attempt to delicately unravel the mess that you've been living in for months, maybe years.

I'll try to understand how, year after year, month after month, you try to change your own mind about things you've already made your mind about, but you feel so completely engulfed in your own self-doubt that you won't let yourself get out of the maze because you're so used to running into dead-ends and exits that just lead you to the same way you just came.

I'll try to understand how you crave new beginnings, fresh start-overs, but they scare you so much because endings completely break you and you don't think you have the energy to pick up the pieces any more, and I'll try to understand how you're getting used to living behind a million walls because that's the only way in your mind that you're going to survive this apocalypse of a life.

I'll try to understand your attempts at starting over again and again and again, but you're stuck on the same people that still haunt you with the memories that mean so much only to you. I'll try to understand how you quietly try to solve unsolvable problems by yourself because of something someone once said; you feel like you're troubling or annoying them if you ask for help or advice.

I'll try to understand how you cover your mouth so nobody hears you crying, or how you repeatedly whisper, "I won't cry" over and over just because you convinced yourself that other people aren't worth your tears and you want to show how strong you are now that you don't cry about everything and anything. I'll try to understand how you let it go when you're alone in your room, turn up the music and cry in its comforting arms.

I'll try to understand how you protect the things you love to do, or songs you love to sing or dance to, or favourite books you love to read over and over again because, once people cut you off, they condescendingly make fun of those things and that hurts you because they attacked you for what you love so you now protect the things you love from others too. I'll try to understand how, instead of being afraid of it all, you started to hate these people and everything, and the world just became a place for you that you wanted no part of but still wanted a place in, a place where only a few people are allowed, where you can breathe after breaking your own walls.

I'll try to understand how you feel when you're all alone, even if you're with your friends and family, and you're scared of loving it because sometimes you start to hate it too. I'll try to understand things you don't want anyone to understand. I'll try to understand you.

You'll ask why, you'll turn your face away, you'll purse your lips. You want to be left alone because nobody can understand you but yourself, right? But I want to. No, I won't give up even if I encounter a part of you that I cannot possibly even fathom to understand. I'll accept it anyway. It's you and you're the most beautiful puzzle. I don't want to solve you, I want to love you. I want to tell you that you're worthy of love and acceptance even if I can't understand you.

You're not lost, because I'll always keep searching for you. You're not incomplete, because you complete me. You're not insufficient, because you're ENOUGH for me, for everyone in the world who matters. Please don't forget that. Please don't forget there's someone like me who thinks this of you. Please don't forget yourself. TC mark

Sometimes You Are Just Meant To Hurt

Posted: 06 May 2016 03:00 PM PDT

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lookcatalog.com

I wish I could guarantee that you would never hurt. I wish I could say that everything would always be comfortable and happy and that your dreams would always be peaceful and sweet. I wish I could fill your head with promises of smooth sailing and that I could assure you that everything really does work out in the end.

But I can’t. And it doesn’t.

Because promises that everything will be all right are empty and unrealistic.

The fact of the matter is, you will hurt, you won’t be all right all of the time. Someone or something will come around and knock you off your comfort shelf, and shatter you in every way imaginable. You will be broken, and broken badly.

And the hardest part about your pain, will be the search for why it’s happening.

You’ll look for meaning, you’ll look for a reason. You’ll put yourself under a metaphorical microscope and dissect every inch of yourself, looking for the cause, for the root of your pain. You’ll rip apart everything that happened to you, pull out every stitch from mending yourself to try to have a definite why.

And you know what’s going to happen?

You’re going to come up empty handed

Maybe not every time, but at least once in your life this will be the case.

There will be a time in your life where you are left in pieces on the floor, completely trampled and walked all over and there will be no why. There will be no reason, no warning, no karma you’re paying back. It will just be.

Sometimes, we’re just in pain. Sometimes, we just ache. Sometimes, there isn’t a bandaid to put on our gaping wounds. Sometimes, we just bleed.

So what do you do? What do you do with this pain, and these bruises, and this hurt? What do you do with the devastation that seemingly has no meaning? What do you do with the hurt that you cannot explain?

You simply have to learn how to live with it.

You have to accept that even though it’s natural for humans to look for the why, sometimes there isn’t one. Sometimes there is no why, no reason. And not matter how hard you search, no matter how much you want for there to be some semblance of closure, some sort of explanation, there just isn’t.

There isn’t anything to make of your pain. No matter how hard you grasp, how desperately you attempt to mold and make something out your heartbreak, there’s nothing. There’s just pain. And it’s awful.

Sometimes there is no poetry, no music, no artistic reasoning behind your pain.

Sometimes it just is. And that’s the most heartbreaking thing of all.

Because sometimes, we’re simply meant to hurt. And hurt for no reason at all.

But the one common denominator? The one piece of comfort that you can hold onto while you’re lying on the floor bruised, battered and broken?

We all go through it.

Absolutely no one gets through life unscathed. Every person is dealt some sort of hand and some sort of pain that shakes them to their core. Every person on this planet, goes through something that makes them want to stay in bed forever.

Every person hurts for no reason sometimes.

But there is a choice we have when we are hurt, when we’re in pain.

And that is (quite simply), what we do with it.

Do we let it render us useless? Do we let it overpower us and leave us helpless on the floor, beaten down and defeated? Do we let the lack of explanation make us completely traumatized and unable to deal?

Or, do we recognize that sometimes, we are simply meant to hurt, and that despite this, we can survive it?

See, I cannot guarantee that you will never hurt. I cannot say that everything will always be comfortable and happy and that your dreams will always be peaceful and sweet. I will not fill your head with promises of smooth sailing and I will absolutely never assure you that everything really does work out in the end.

In fact, I will promise the opposite.

I will guarantee that you will hurt, and you will hurt profoundly. I know that there will be days, weeks, months, years where you are not comfortable, and so far from happy you forget what it feels like. I know that you will have nightmares and sleepless nights, and I know that it will not always be smooth sailing and sometimes things just don’t work out for no reason at all.

But I also know one other thing.

In spite of all of that, in spite of the fact that you will hurt…

You’ll be okay.

Really. I promise. TC mark

This Is How I Miss You, Even When I’m Trying So Hard Not To

Posted: 06 May 2016 02:00 PM PDT

BETA_FIXER
BETA_FIXER

I still miss you sometimes.

The feeling comes quietly while I'm sleeping. I go to bed unharmed, and I wake up with a stomach ache all over again. And there is a hole in my body, like a bullet had just shattered my bones in my dreams. It isn't until noon that I realize it's you who I'm missing.

And then I realize I have missed you for three years straight. And even though I didn't always know it, a part of me always did and always will.

Some days, missing you has been quiet, like a soft whisper every winter. Yet, I trudged through the snow like we used to, with new strides in my step. Missing you just felt soft, like snowflakes melting into my warm mittens. It didn't seem to last.

But other days, missing you has felt like a stampede of longing and wanting and hoping in the hot summer heat. And I am drenched with your scent all over me once more. And I am tired. Tired of longing for something that doesn't exist. Tired of wanting someone who has moved on. Tired of hoping you will change your mind.

Tonight, as I drink red wine and try to sleep, I wish you were here.

I keep googling things, asking for advice, looking for excuses.

I keep asking the Internet how long it takes people to get over their first love. When will the longing stop? When will the bullets stop shooting me down?  When will I find peace?

Google doesn't help much.

I tell others I am okay. No, I don't miss him. I tell myself I am okay. No, I don't miss him.

But, maybe instead of googling things, we should all just write down our truths instead of trying to hide them. Maybe we should speak up instead of silencing ourselves in fear of being shamed. Maybe we should be true to ourselves for once.

So, here is my truth:

I miss you on good days, on bad days, on warm nights, and on cold nights. I miss you when the sun is about to rise, and when the moon takes the sun's place for the stars to cover the black sky.

I miss you when I watch people intertwine their fingers together. I miss you when I look at my dried out prom corsage. I miss you after I have dreamt about you and wake up in a sweat. I miss you when I don't even know that I'm missing you.

And I miss you with every ounce of energy that takes to write this all down. But I am so tired of this feeling. I am so tired of it all.

A few years ago, I gave you a journal. On each page, I wrote out why I loved you.

I remember reading it to you in that fancy hotel. You smiled.

Things are different now. Years have passed by. And for you, I'm only a memory.

You are miles away physically, and miles away emotionally. This isn't a love letter. This isn't a dramatic plea for you to love me again. This is just my reality, and my thoughts that are flowing out of me so fast that I can hardly take a breath.

And so I admit, I still miss you sometimes. Maybe I miss you all the time. But, this isn't a love letter to you. It's a letter for me, to remind myself to keep on healing and to keep on going.  Missing you does not define me. It does not diminish me.

And it never will. TC mark

If You Love Me, Remind Me Of That Every Single Day

Posted: 06 May 2016 01:31 PM PDT

NickBulanovv
NickBulanovv

Remind me to always lie with you, but never to you, and that hurt only hurts while it lasts. Remind me to hold hands but never hold back.

Remind me of love, remind me of heart, and remind me that life will not tear me apart today, but if it tries and when it does, remind me that I'm good enough to be enough for you.

Remind me that the only way to make it last is to put us first, and remind me that the past is a prelude and pain is a choice, that I'll get knocked down but I can get up quick, and yes, I'll get destroyed but I can rebuild again.

When you see me flailing in rough seas, coughing up lungfuls of dark waves, and I'm thinking I'm sinking because my arms are numb and I can't feel my legs, remind me with a hushed assurance and a knowing grin, "You'll drown slower if your chin's up, friend."

Remind me to have faith.

Remind me why I love you.

Remind me that the stargaze stares we share and the galaxies we wish to explore are inside, not above, that the paths we long to travel are internal, not foreign, and remind me when my dreams seem lost like faraway lands in disrepair, that you'll hold my hand and always care.

Remind me that it's me you think about when you wish for happily ever after.

Remind me that not all aches are bad, that black nights still shine light and even in rainstorms or when hail comes and the sky is filled with emptiness we run from, the sun is always out somewhere.

Remind me that I am filled with light.

Remind me why your eyes do such funny things to mine and how, sometimes, time stops in the shadow of your smile.

Remind me that storm clouds are just water up high in the sky, that water is needed, that water gives life, and though it may arrive in drops of sweat or tears of strife, remind me that I can heal.

Remind me to keep you close but to never go too far, and remind me that even if we feel like a lifetime stopped and stuck in its tracks like a frozen statue of our distant past, even if it feels like pointless paralysis or a beginner's magic trick, even when we resemble an empty well all out of wishes, remind me it will be okay and already is.

Remind me that you are strong, and remind me so am I.

Remind me that you aren't scared when, can't run from, won't hide, and don't mind my pain when it's all I know and feel and fear.

Remind me that we'll never know how it ends until it does, and even then, it doesn't because what we have and who we are isn't something we can just pack up and leave behind, like some kind of shooting star in some cold and fleeting night.

Remind me how I love getting lost in you.

Remind me that you are an adventure worth taking and never forgetting.

Remind me it starts now, today, for always in all ways, and remind me to remind you of this, all of it, always in all ways. TC mark

This Is What Almost Dating Is Really Doing To You

Posted: 06 May 2016 01:00 PM PDT

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I called it an almost relationship. My friends called it a booty call. I called it love. My friends called me crazy.

But this grey area of kind of sort of almost dating someone is much more common than I realized. I thought I was the only crazy one who fell in love with someone who wouldn't call me his girlfriend. I thought I was the crazy one for hooking up with someone and he'd talk about someone else. Cause well we were best friends too, so there weren't rules. Or if there were he was making them.

I learned only after real friends would never make you cry. It took me until I walked away to realize real love wasn't suppose to be this complicated. Real love was simple and he wasn't.

And I fearfully walked away on a night I couldn't take it anymore. Because humans can only take so much abuse. That's what almost relationships are. It's this invisible abuse we don't even see affecting us. It's half love when humans were designed to take in whole love. It's the kisses and sex and physically and emotionally attached to someone who doesn't respect you enough to even text you back, because well you aren't his girlfriend and he's not obligated to.

So you muster this strength to walk away and you try not looking back. Which is a challenge in itself? But here's this person who has you so dialed they say jump and you say how high. But the greatest test of self-respect is looking at someone you are head over heals in love with and saying I deserve more than this.

But however long this has been going on, psychologically it messes with your head in the worst way. Because dating is never simple after you come across these people.

You don't trust yourself at all.

When someone is playing this game and changing every rule, you're just fumbling to keep up because you don't know when things are gonna change. You don't know when he's gonna pick up and leave. You don't know if it's gonna be another night you feel empty because he's gone for a moment until he wants you again. You don't trust anything about yourself. Because if you listen to yourself you'd run back every time even though you know you shouldn't.

You're insecure.

Because when you are just somebody's side chick or fuck buddy or they don't wanna commit to you, you think it's a direct reflection of you. You want to change. You want so badly to be like the girls he tells you about. You want so badly for him to want you as much as you want him. But in every future relationship, you find yourself more insecure.

You don't trust anyone else.

Your walls are so high after this guy who hurt you. You think everyone is out to get you. Because if this person you claimed to be in love with can hurt you, anyone can.

You accept mistreatment because it's all you've ever known.

There are moments where I'm sure you got into screaming fights and cursing and name calling. And I'm sure you just took it. I'm sure he apologized and things went from really bad to almost perfect. This isn't a healthy relationship. Emotional abuse is a real thing. And someone toying with your heartstrings just because they can isn't love.

Your standards become lower.

After them, you do begin to settle. Like an abused puppy you're terrified of anything like that ever happening again. But for some reason, we gravitate towards familiarity. And just when you think you got over this one guy, another one comes and treats you the same way.

We hate to admit we are the ones allowing this recurring theme to keep happening.

You oddly miss them and compare others to them.

But then this person who has come in and out of your life so many times. This person who has caused so many tears you somehow miss them. And everyone thinks you're crazy for missing someone who treated you bad. But you and I both know with the little bit of bad came a whole lot of good as well. And that's what you fell in love with, the person you wanted him to be all the time. You fell in love with who you were together when things were good wishing it would stay that way.

You don't let yourself be happy because all you've ever known is sadness.

Happiness is so foreign to you because you associated it with being happy when this guy treated you well which wasn't always the case. So instead of being happy and having moments of sadness, you were unhappy and pined after those few moments of happiness. Life isn’t supposed to be happy only sometimes.

You lose yourself.

Because it's impossible for anyone to not change. But I think there's a way you can walk away from an unhealthy relationship and change for the better. So yes you lose yourself, but I think it's so important to lose that person who tolerated such mistreatment. Don't feel bad losing that person. You are better than who you were and you have the potential to be your best self. Sometimes it just takes breaking old habits that die hard. And the most difficult of habits are toxic people because they always come back. TC mark