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Here’s 20 Horror Movies You Can Watch On Netflix For Every Day Of October

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 08:49 PM PDT

Haunter

Haunter
Haunter

A fresh twist on the ages-old ghost story.

Sleepy Hollow

Sleepy Hollow
Sleepy Hollow

Tim Burton’s breathtaking visual murder mystery with bonus perfect Johnny Depp cheekbones.

The Awakening

The Awakening
The Awakening

A spooky English thriller with great tension and a solid plot.

5. Dark Skies (2013)

Dark Skies
Dark Skies

Well-executed alien terror straight out of the X-Files.

The Babadook

The Babadook
The Babadook

A horror story rooted in real life almost as much as the mythical monster lurking between the pages.

V/H/S

V/H/S
V/H/S

One of my all-time found footage favorites — “I like you.”

The Houses October Built

The Houses October Built
The Houses October Built

LITERALLY about searching for the perfect haunt leading up to Halloween.

Scream 2

Scream 2
Scream 2

More Ghostface fun, but in college this time.

The Den

The Den
The Den

One more reason the Internet is a scary place.

Inner Demons

Inner Demons
Inner Demons

“Intervention” meets “The Exorcist” meets my heart.

Wes Craven’s New Nightmare

Wes Craven's New Nightmare
Wes Craven’s New Nightmare

My personal favorite Freddy Krueger movie and meta as fuck.

Dead Silence

Dead SIlence
Dead Silence

Creepy puppet mystery with bonus Stabby Old Inmate from “Orange Is The New Black”!

Honeymoon

Honeymoon
Honeymoon

Exactly the opposite of how you want your marital bliss to begin.

Curse of Chucky

Curse of Chucky
Curse of Chucky

Because what’s October without an update on our favorite psychotic pal Chucky?

The Ward

The Ward
The Ward

A good excuse to look at Amber Heard for 88 minutes.

Children of the Corn

Children Of The Corn
Children Of The Corn

Creepy kids and cornfields and basically a PSA to never visit Nebraska.

Hellraiser

Hellraiser
Hellraiser

All the scariest kinks you never knew existed, other dimensions, and also hell puzzles!

Stonehearst Asylum

Stonehearst Asylum
Stonehearst Asylum

Because we all need a little bearded Michael Caine in our lives.

The Lazarus Effect

Lazarus Effect
The Lazarus Effect

A star-studded creepfest about the dangers of playing god.

Creep

Creep
Creep

Because I can’t get enough of Mark Duplass and the “Peachfuzz” song. TC mark

18 Men Admit Why They Want To Fuck You In The Ass

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 08:00 PM PDT

Amanda Leigh Smith
Amanda Leigh Smith

1. “It’s so fucking tight in there. It feels like a pussy, but at the same time, it feels totally different than a pussy. It’s a weird sensation that I highly suggest.” — Andy, 27


2. “I love doing it doggy style, and when we do anal, that’s our go-to position.” —  Zach, 24


3. “I like the intimacy of it. Yeah, yeah, I know how that sounds. But I’ve only had anal sex with girls I’ve been in serious relationships with, so it’s like a special bonding thing for me.” — Victor, 29


4. “I know some girls hate anal, but my girlfriend actually enjoys it. I don’t know why. But she likes it, so I give it to her whenever she asks.” — John, 21


5. “I’m paranoid about knocking a girl up. Can’t do that from the backdoor, so…” — Eric, 23


6. “The friction is great. But I think it’s less about the actual feeling and more in my head. I know how taboo it is and that turns me on.” — Joel, 23


7. “I’ve seen so much porn where the dude sticks it in the woman’s ass, so I got curious. It’s not as amazing as it looks on screen, but it ain’t bad, either.” — Christian, 30


8. “It makes me feel like I have total and complete control over her. I get off on that.” — Jeremy, 26


9. “Full disclosure: I go down on my girlfriend all the time. Try to make her cum as often as I do. But I like the selfishness of anal sex. It doesn’t do much for her, so it’s all about me, just for that night.” — Caleb, 22


10. “Anal isn’t an everyday thing. It’s usually what happens during birthday sex. That’s why I like it. It’s a good change of pace. Especially when you’ve been dating the same girl for forever.” — Edward, 29


11. “When I’m horny, I’ll take any hole I can get.” — Spencer, 22


12. “I don’t know, really. It’s something to brag about to my friends.” — Brett, 19


13. “Honestly, no girl has ever agreed to anal, so I haven’t tried it yet. And that’s really the only reason it interests me. I want to cross it off my bucket list.” — Phillip, 27


14. “It feels naughty, you know? It’s a forbidden fruit type of thing.” — Martin, 19


15. “Asses are my favorite. I like squeezing them and slapping them and fucking them. Sexy AF.” — Troy, 25 


16. “Have you ever seen a hot girl’s ass? I want to be as close to it as possible.” — Keith, 20


17. “I’m an ass man. ‘Nuff said.” — Frankie, 20


18. “I love anal sex as much as the next guy, but just to be clear, I love pussy more. So it’s not like I’m upset if a girl tells me her ass is off-limits.” — Omar, 26 TC mark

23 Men Reveal What ‘Creepy’ Things Girls Do That Immediately Send Them Running

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 07:00 PM PDT

Thought.Is
Thought.Is

Responses originally found on R/AskReddit

1. Pretending to be me

Posing as you on social media.

There was a woman I had been dating for a few weeks several years back. We were out doing…stuff (it’s been a while) and at some point in the day, we had to sit down and wait on something. Maybe we were picking something up, dunno, doesn’t matter.

While we’re sitting, she asks to see my phone. Well, not so much asks as says, “let me see your phone.” I didn’t think much of it. I figured that she was just looking for some entertainment while we were waiting and the battery in hers was dying or something, so I handed it over and said something like, “sure, but I don’t have any fun apps I think.”

I got my phone back a little later and the day went on. Later that night, I started receiving some…interesting texts from my two female friends, plus my sister. Apparently, I had sent them texts informing them that I was in a relationship and would be phasing them out of my life out of respect for my girlfriend.

I wish I could tell you I noped out right then and there, but I was legitimately fearful that I had stumbled upon some Basic Instinct Fatal Attraction-level stalker. Took me a month to ramp that shit down and fade out.

— XLauncher

2. I’m not a cat

If she meows and paws at you like a cat…in public… repeatedly.

— HiddenKarambit

3. Obviously a rebound

If she won’t shut up about an ex-boyfriend, insists on taking way to many “happy couple” pictures to post online, and demands you follow her to where she knows he will be, you’re a rebound. She will never care about you. She only cares about hurting him. And, no, it’s not just a phase. Once she gets over it, 9/10 she will drop you too.

— Secretly_psycho

4. The phone doesn’t stop ringing

Calling me too many times before I can answer.

— DownvoteDaemon

5. They wanted all the passwords

Get angry, like “actually angry”-angry, because you’d rather not let her have your password(s) to your email, reddit, etc.

— something4222

6. Um, how did you get those pics?

Posts pictures of you sleeping.

— 20150506

7. Not ready to be a dad

First night back at her place – “Cum inside me!”

Um… no.

— Jaereth

8. Why are you talking to them?

Not only did she stalk my ex but apparently she had a long talk with my ex’s mother.

— ironman82

9. What must I call you?

Any grown ass woman that refers to herself as a princess.

— luisgustavo-

10. They never do anything wrong

Serious victim complex. “I’m just sooo nice but everyone else is mean to me for no reason. I’m such a good person and they treat me like shit, I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. Everyone runs away from me and no one gets me. Except for you.”

— fasilsha

11. Being too petty

Becoming actually bothered by insignificant things, like getting angry over not enough ice in a drink or the shirt you are wearing.

— shuky770

12. This is wild

I was at a club about 10 years ago and I started chatting up a girl at the bar. I could tell she was interested and after about 20 minutes of chatting at the bar and a few drinks we swapped numbers. Later in the night whilst on the dance floor with my friends cutting some awesome shapes we found each other again and we began getting a bit hot and heavy with the dance moves.

She asked me if I wanted to back to her flat so we left the club and got a taxi back to hers. The next morning I wake up with an absolute bastard of a hangover and she’s nowhere to be seen. I start getting dressed and for the life of me I cannot find my underwear or my phone. I get dressed commando and leave her bedroom, I have absolutely no fucking idea what her name is but I hear the tv in the living room. I walk in and she’s sitting on the couch with a boy about 5 and a girl about 3 eating breakfast / watching tv. I assume they were being babysat by someone she knew whilst she had a night out.

I mouth an awkard hello and she smiles and takes me through to her kitchen. I ask her if she has seen my underwear and my phone. She says she hasn’t seen my underwear and that she plugged my phone into her charger as it was dead. I tell her that I need to leave and that I would call her (cliche I know). I walk outside to phone a taxi and when I power on my phone she has changed my wallpaper to a picture of me sleeping with her lying next to me in the bed with a love heart in the middle of it. I blocked her number and never seen her again.

— TheRudeOne

13. Shared everything

I think it’s creepy when women (or men, but I feel like more women do this) insist on the shared facebook account/shared email as soon as you get married/engaged. I’ve noticed this from my super religious friends as well as some who are just super clingy and needy. My mom shares my dad’s facebook account. she says she’s too “lazy” to make her own but I think she can’t stand the idea of my dad having any conversation that doesn’t involve her!

My husband and I have a “shared” email for things like bills, communication with the kid’s teacher (because they never remember to reply all), but that’s it; we have our own email accounts for our own shit. Multiple individual emails, even; junk email for buying stuff online, another email for gaming/reddit, another “real name” email for job applications and so forth. I would never go through his emails or try to use his email for anything!

— actuallycallie

14. Don’t test me

The worst thing a woman can do is ask one of her friends to come onto her boyfriend to see if he will cheat.

When I was dating my wife, I told her early on that I would never cheat on her and if she ever had her friends hit on me to see if I would cheat, it’s over.

— NewMachinist22

15. Oh god…

Happy one week anniversary! <3 You are my oxygen, the only thing I need to keep me alive! Xoxoxoxo Together forever! <3 Hashtag perfect, hashtag Relationship goals, hashtag fuck those other bitches, hashtag please give me attention! <3 <3 <3 <3 xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo

— funkytownmagic

16. Don’t burn my house down

Commit arson. No joke, my ex tried to burn down my house because I overcooked her chicken nuggets.

— GlutenFreetos

17. Get me out of here

first date

“OMG Our kids will be so cuteeeee.”

— EADGod

18. Random ghosting

Not necessarily creepy but this happens a lot to me. First date, goes well in my mind and confirmed by them. Then their texting patterns show enormous interest afterwards up to the point that we had plans to get together again. Then they just fade. Like, come on. You could’ve stopped replying after our first date if you weren’t interested, no need to drag it on for a week, getting my hopes up.

— SmoresPies

19. Stockpiling dirt on you

Stalk your internet profiles and screenshot anything that they don’t like and/or believe has a different meaning than it’s actual intent and hold it against you when you get in a fight about something completely different.

— karmakarmachameleon_

20. What?

When I mention that my ex was emotionally abusive, she said something along the lines of “Maybe it’s your fault?”

Or when some women say they want their boyfriend to wait on them hand and foot, or else she will dump them.

Technically, it’s not creepy. It’s just disgusting.

— Rearranger_

21. Wait, hold on…

When she starts laughing by herself and ask you if you remember certain said event only to realize that she did that event with her ex and not you but still expects you to laugh with her…

— callmetmrw

22. No privacy

Always asking to see your phone/what you’re doing on your phone

— jbOOgi3

23. When they tell you exactly what to do

If she posts all sorts of sappy “I love you’s” on FB addressed to you instead of messaging them or saying that in your face.

If she posts the dreadful Marilyn Monroe quote about “if you can’t handle me blah blah blah”

If she posts those “real men do this and that” posters all over FB.

— KremlinGremlin82 TC mark

14 People Tell The INSANE Stories Of Their Most Awkward Sex Ever

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 06:00 PM PDT

Daniella Urdinlaiz
Daniella Urdinlaiz

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“There was a girl I used to hook up with just for sex. We were both single but didn’t have anything in common except sex. We were parked in an alley and She is riding me in the backseat of a car reverse cowgirl and another couple just laid on the hood of my car and started having sex. We stopped and the girl on the hood looked up and locked eyes with the girl I was with for a good 5 seconds. We all just stopped.”

— professir101

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“I was in high school and I was hooking up with my then girlfriend in my car. I was dropping her off after a date and we parked a little ways down the street from her house in a more secluded area. We were going at it and this group of kids run by knocking on my windows shouting stuff, clearly they knew what was going on and were just being annoying teenagers (I probably would have done the same thing at that age).

One of the kids running by the driver-side door where we were going at it stops and presses his face against the window just to be a little shit. He immediately recoils and freezes. It’s her younger brother. We lock eyes, he continues backing away and bolts. My girlfriend saw him too and was a little rattled. We didn’t end up finishing which was completely understandable in my book.

Now I mentioned this was her younger brother and at this time I was a junior in high school and he was a freshmen and we were both on the soccer team together. Even though I could have given him plenty of shit since I sort of had the upper hand in this situation I never said anything as a cold, hard stare with a smirk was all it took for the next week or so to bring the uncomfortable image of me fucking his sister to the for front of his mind which was a satisfying enough means of payback, in my book, for cock-blocking me.”

— oaks12

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“Ahh, my first sexual experience… in a car, in a parking garage. Girl started giving me a blowjob… eventually got frustrated and said something along the lines of ‘it usually doesn’t take this long.’ That was an awkward way to learn that I’m not into blowjobs.”

— A_Suvorov

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“I was in college, living in a house with 7 other guys, and we threw some big-ass parties (250 – 300 people would show). It was pretty easy to hook up with chicks because you were a rockstar in your own house.

One time, as the party was winding down, a girl shoved a piece of paper with her phone number into my hand and walked out without speaking a word. Fuck ya, I think. Text her right away and she tells me to come over (lived only a couple blocks away). I show up, we start messing around, then suddenly she says, “I don’t have sex on the first date.” Since when is this a date and why in the hell would you invite me over at 3am if not to fuck?, I think.

But whatever. I’m respectful and half-heartedly accept a handjob, but stop her midway through because frankly, handjobs are boring. I wake up the next morning, realize what the date is, wish her a Happy Valentine’s day, then peaced out and never spoke to her again.

Awkward all around.”

— RedStag00

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“My ex and I were having sex in my car at the park on a late night. I looked out the side window and there he was… A clown standing a few meters away. I don’t know if he was looking directly at us or just in our general direction but that killed the mood quickly. He turned around and started walking after a few seconds.”

— Hey_IT

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“Met this ‘milf’ of a dating site for a one night stand. It was many years ago and my standards were pretty low at the time. She was a bit fat and not all that pretty but a shags a shag right?

Anyway i started going down on her, she stunk so bad so i started using my finger and hoping she wouldnt notice. She did and said ‘use your tongue so i tried again. I started gagging and said i couldnt do it because of my ‘asthma’

I still banged her and actually came pretty quick.”

— Martianman97

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“I had post-funeral sex with one of my dead best friend’s out of town lady friends. She had flown in, didn’t know anyone, and wasn’t about to sit around bored that night. I, having a penis, and having witnessed her extremely stacked body (flat tummy AND huge tits? yes please!) was definitely down for it.

So after the reception and shit, off we went, to drown our misery in more whisky and then fuck our brains out.

To this day, my friend’s brother thinks she snuck off with another dude, and I’m not about to disabuse him of that notion. His brother (my best friend) would have high fived me for this anyway.

The awkward part came after we got back to my house and I peel her clothes off, and drunkenly leer at her (I was trying for Most Interesting Man in the World Face, but I’m sure I failed) and asked her if she had any requests or wanted it a certain way. She said she was up for anything, and I said, ‘Anything?!’ to which she vigorously nodded.

So I put it in her butt. She definitely enjoyed that but later, when she was riding me she reached back to massage my balls … ok good … then my taint … still good … then she fucking popped a thumb in my ass.

NO BUENO.

She said turnabout was fair play. I was like … ‘OK, I guess …’ but I became hyper-aware of her poop-thumb and I had to stop and ask her to go wash it.”

— inline-triple

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“Getting a blowjob (best ones I’ve ever gotten were from this chick) and she deepthroats as I start to cum. She always did this, but this time, for whatever reason, I apparently came so hard it shot up her nose.”

— IA_Royalty

9.

“Girl started growling and calling herself puppy.”

— jmo10

10.

“During my first time, the girl and I tried titty fucking. I was big enough, as was her boobs so it worked rather well and years of porn had me hyped that this would be great. But all in all, it was a bit lackluster and she seemed a tad disappointed I didn’t blow my load from it.

But that was later remedied from an amazing blowjob. So I learned that despite porn getting me enthused all this time, not that crazy about titty fucking.”

— Dat37tho

11.

“We both had flat chests and I didn’t have any chest hair. Every time we pressed our torsos together, it made that armpit fart noise. The weird part was that only I seemed to find it distracting.”

— BrobearBerbil

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“Sleeping with this girl for the first time, we got super into it. Like, pounding the fuck out of her. I stand up, holding her legs in the air with her upside down on her shoulders. I accidentally pull out too far and when I thrusted back in, it went straight into her poopchute.

She spent the next 10 minutes crying and holding her asshole.”

— Zwaanzy

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“My office FWB and I got caught by one of my co-workers having sex in the computer room. The awkward part was that the SOB was hiding behind some equipment and wacking off while watching us. I heard him and saw him out of the corner of my eye and he ran off. I confronted him. He apologized to both of us.”

— Eldergoth

14.

“I had a threeway that involved a girl whose boyfriend was out in the living room having a hissyfit the whole time. So we cucked some poor guy unintentionally. It was more distracting than expected.”

— CoyoteBanned TC mark

14 Hilarious Times Reddit Came Up With Savagely Brutal Comebacks That Didn’t Hold Back

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 05:00 PM PDT

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It’s Time To Go And Live Your Fucking Life Already

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 04:00 PM PDT

Unsplash
Unsplash

“There will never be a right time to do a great thing.”

That’s what Dr. Eric Thomas said, and he’s right. It’s great advice.

And I’m finally taking it.

For the last ten years or so, I’ve daydreamed about a road trip across the United States.

For the last few years, I’ve talked about it.

And talked about it.

And talked about it some more.

With my fears disguised as excuses, I learned it’s easier to talk than do but in two weeks I take a one way flight from Australia to Los Angeles to start driving, and it feels really damn good.

I’m not going to lie, I feel excited and terrified, unsettled and amazing. Most importantly, for the first time in a long while, I feel alive.

I really do.

I’ve talked to tons of people over the past few months and I’ve heard the same comments over and over again. I’ve heard their same fears and concerns, the same uncomfortable reasons why it would never work, never happen, never be possible for them. But, having won my internal debate about this, I want to help you win yours.

Make no mistake: If you’re waiting for a sign, this is it.

This is a great big sign with huge shiny letters that glow in the dark and loudly howl, “BOOK THE DAMN FLIGHT AND BUY THE DAMN CAR AND GET MOVING FAR AWAY FROM WHERE YOU ARE RIGHT NOW.”

And if that didn’t work, how about another try of a different type, maybe a tiny little sign tucked away in a deep part of your heart with messy writing that knowingly whispers: “Hey, you really should do this, and you know you should too, so what if you go ahead and do it because it’ll be really good for you in the long run, I’m serious, okay?”

Or, to put it another way: Do it. Come on. Let’s go. Hurry up. It’s time. Get moving. All aboard. Right now.

When you know what needs to be done, there are no more excuses that work anymore.

So, do it.

Now is the time to begin the rest of your life.

Now is the time to finish this frustrating chapter you’re sick of reading, pages you want to rip out and burn if only to warm the coldness you feel for the choices you’ve made.

Now is the time to start writing a new book with new characters and a new narrative.

Now is the time to put on your cape and be the hero you’ve always been but never knew you needed.

I know though, it’s hard, it really is, because you don’t have the money, don’t know where to go, don’t want to go alone, have never done anything like this, have a head full of worries and doubts and what ifs and “how will I even…” and “you don’t understand…” and “I could never…” and “I need more time…” and “it’s not the right time…” and “I can’t decide…” and…

Fuck it.

Go anyway.

“Fuck it. I’m doing it.”

Try saying that out loud.

And again.

Now go out and let the world scare you and see how brave you become. Go be broke and learn how survival lurks around every corner and how it always works out somehow in some way. Go laugh until your stomach aches. Go climb mountains where the open road ends. Go find love in new eyes and stare at a stranger who may change your life. Go feel lonely and hurt. Go honor self-worth and go shatter self-doubt and discover the blooming blossoms in the upturn of your mouth. Go gaze at stars, have breakdowns and breakthroughs, eat good food, and do whatever you want to do. Go be free. Go have fun. Go and let your heart decide how, and where, and why.

Not many people on their deathbed regret following their heart, but do you know what they do regret?

They regret living small.

They regret playing safe.

They regret never trying to feel truly alive.

They regret not believing in themselves enough to live the life they desire.

Don’t be one of those fucking people, okay? TC mark

44 Questions For Couples That Will Strengthen Your Relationship Even Faster

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 03:30 PM PDT

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20 Things A Strong Woman Wants You To Know

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 03:00 PM PDT

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1. She's strong because she's been through a lot and she had to learn how to survive on her own.

2. She knows what it's like to be broken and she knows what it's like to be weak but she also knows how to move on and how to start over.

3. She is not hard to love as people say, she just doesn't want to be with the wrong person because when she loves someone, she loves them fiercely and fearlessly.

4. She will leave if she’s unwanted. She understands that chasing someone is not the same as loving them. She believes that love should be mutual, respectful and reciprocated.

5. No matter how close you are to her, she will never completely tell you everything that's bothering her, she will always say less and smile more.

6. She doesn't always know what's right and she's not afraid to admit that. A strong woman knows that she doesn’t need to be perfect to be strong.

7. She sees strength in love and vulnerability. A strong woman's love is unmatched because she sometimes thinks she's wonder woman sent to save her prince charming.

8. She is hard on herself most of the time because she expects herself to fulfill all roles; the mother, the father, the sister, the best friend and the boyfriend. She wants to be all in one.

9. She prefers to take care of herself even if she's with someone who could take care of her.

10. She will always be surrounded by a lot of friends and a lot of people because she finds power in connections and relationships and she's always looking for opportunities to grow.

11. She doesn't know how to settle which can be both a blessing and a curse.

12. She is the kind of woman that will still live her life like nothing is happening even if her world is falling apart.

13. She has learned that heartbreak and disappointments are part of life, so she gets sad but she doesn't act like things are catastrophic anymore.

14. She doesn't always love herself but she never lets that diminish her value or her self-worth.

15. She has learned the hard way that if she doesn't respect herself, no one will respect her.

16. She knows that it's not always easy to speak up but it's necessary.

17. She's probably surrounded by a lot of strong women; whether her friends or her family because that's where she gets her strength and inspiration from.

18. She likes her friends to come to her for support, even when she's hurting, because she gains more strength when she helps others.

19. She believes in herself even if the odds are against her.

20. A strong woman will always be a work in progress, full of surprises, full of power, full of beauty and full of love.  TC mark

This Is Why I Finally Said Goodbye To You

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 02:00 PM PDT

Tommy Tong
Tommy Tong

It was the night we silently ended something we never truly had. It was excruciatingly beautiful and painful.

We started the night drinking cheap liquor in a local hippie bar in town. Just the two of us, surprisingly mindless of the people around. We talked, held hands, laughed. We talked like it was our first date, eager to savor every bit of information about each other. Some of them were things we already knew, while some were new.

I remembered looking at you intently while you told me about the first song you learned to play on guitar and mentally noted that I should listen to it more because it means something to you. It was the same night you told me about your first love who was also your first girlfriend from high school. You told me her name and you still think about her at times. I could tell that sometimes, you wish I was her.

So I sat there, listening and lovingly memorizing every detail of your face, wishing I was her.

And we drank until we were drunk enough to ignore, for the last time, the harsh reality that we were not made for each other. We drank until we were drunk enough to let each other go and as the alcohol thinned our blood, so did our time.

Our time was coming to an end and the palpable, harrowing air of goodbye was sucking the life out of my soul and I desperately wished for time to stop, for the world to freeze and for once be in my favor so I can hug you and hold you, and maybe never let you go.

I would have set a bit of me on fire, enough for a spark, just to keep us burning for a little while.

But maybe if I did, it still wouldn't be enough because in our universe, our stars never align and we're just an inconsequential flicker in its imposing bonfire.

That flicker, the solitary light of my life, was put off.

And so came the night, came the end. You sent me off. We said no goodbyes, just see you later but who were we fooling. One last hug and I turned around, fighting so hard with myself so as not to look back because I knew you were watching me go, possibly waiting for me to look back. To go back.

That was always the case. Every time I leave, you would just always watch me go and wait for me to come back without doing anything. You were too complacent and it was making me feel unsafe.

That was why someone had to put the flicker off even if that someone had to be me.

That was why I never looked back, why I never went back.

To see the ashes of our flicker turn gray would be too much. TC mark

Why You’re Unsatisfied With Your Life (And How To Fix It), Based On Your Zodiac Sign

Posted: 30 Sep 2016 01:00 PM PDT

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Aries

(March 21st to April 19th)

You’re losing your hunger for growth and knowledge, because you’re not spending your time and energy on stuff that challenges you and forces you to be better. Whether it’s a bland job, a mediocre partner, or a lack of passions outside of work, you need to find something that inspires you and breathes life back into your everyday experiences.

Taurus

(April 20th to May 21st)

You’re an extremely hard worker – you’re dependable, determined, and diligent. But sometimes being a hard worker means you take on too many things at once, and then you end up dropping the ball on several of your promises. As motivated as you are by success, wealth, and improvement, you need to make sure you’re putting 100% of your effort into everything you do, instead of spreading yourself too thin and only giving 20% or 30% of your effort to projects that turn out poorly and therefore cause you to feel frustrated and disappointed in yourself. Focus on doing a few things incredibly well, rather than doing a mediocre job on dozens of projects.

Gemini

(May 22nd to June 21st)

Your life has gotten to be too routine, too predictable, and too “blah.” You feel inspired and alive when you’re constantly being stimulated – by meeting interesting people, by putting effort into your relationships, by reading and learning and discovering new music and movies. You need to make sure you’re still taking time out of your busy day to try new things, go to new restaurants, take on new hobbies, try new classes, etc. Don’t let yourself feel stifled by the mundanity that can come with adulthood. That’s what’s bringing you down.

Cancer

(June 22nd to July 22nd)

The most important thing to you is your relationships with your loved ones – friends, family, a partner, even coworkers. You’re a very selfless and empathetic person, and sometimes that means you can end up attracting manipulative and selfish ‘friends’ who disguise these traits as loneliness or sadness. What you need to do is focus your energy on the people who give you as much as you give to them. Otherwise, you’re going to be doling out your love, energy, and kindness to people who are only going to suck it up into a black hole, instead of taking it and multiplying it and continuing to spread it along with you.

Leo

(July 23rd to August 22nd)

You greatly value passion, the arts, your imagination, and originality. But your creativity can also be stifled and in constant conflict with your tendency towards laziness and passivity. You’re only truly happy, satisified, and inspired when you’re constantly creating art and making things and exploring your own artistic tendencies. So as tempting as it is to sit on the couch after work and watch mindless tv for hours, you need to remember that that will only provide you with short-term satisfaction. The easiest way to wake yourself up and begin to feel a spark again is to force yourself to start creating! The more diligent you become about it, the more natural it will feel and the happier you will be.

Virgo

(August 23rd to September 22nd)

You love working hard, getting things done, and expanding your intelligence. But your obsession with perfection and your instinct to be critical towards yourself constantly gets in the way. You convince yourself that you’re being practical and analytical, but really what you’re doing is pushing yourself towards resenting the type of work that you actually love deep down. What you need to do is rediscover the balance between work and play, and learn how to give yourself a break and force yourself to enjoy some time off, so that work and your hobbies and any of your other commitments can feel refreshing and inspiring to you again, instead of tedious and draining.

Libra

(September 23rd to October 22nd)

You have to stop moving from thing to thing to thing. Your curiosity and thirst for exploring new ideas can be a wonderful thing, unless you take it to the point of being indecisive and flaky with everything that you try. What you need to understand is that even the type of thing you initially love and are fascinated by is eventually going to get hard and challenging – and sometimes you’re not going to be good at it. But instead of moving on to the next shiny object, you need to put your time, energy, and focus into something that matters to you, even if it’s difficult in the moment. Once you start learning to work through adversity, you’ll develop a passion and an interest in your projects that goes so much deeper than surface level. And then you’ll realize it’s a thousand times more satisfying than that initial high of discovering something new and exciting.

Scorpio

(October 23rd to November 22nd)

You’re spending too much time around passive people, or at least, you’re looking at the way they act and assuming you should do the same thing. It’s fine to have passive friends, and it doesn’t mean you need to ‘drop’ them and walk away. But you do need to learn that the way you handle yourself can (and at times, should) be different from the way your friends handle themselves. If you’re spending too many hours bingewatching shows and ordering takeout and doing nothing, you need to get moving again. Put some more time and energy back into one of your bigger passions. Put in a little more effort at work. Get up early. Get some sort of exercise, even if it’s walking. Learn, read. Keep up with the news. Just remember that even if you have friends who have fallen into a mundane routine, it doesn’t mean you have to follow suit.

Sagittarius

(November 23rd to December 21st)

You love change, you love achieving your goals, you always try to see the glass as half full. But sometimes this leads to you assuming that things will take care of themselves, instead of taking your life into your own hands and deciding for yourself what it is that you actually want, instead of saying “whatever happens, happens.” You need to start going after what you truly desire again – to travel, to spend time around people that inspire you, to learn about things outside of the little bubble that you live in. Stop letting life happen to you, and instead, decide what you want to happen in your life. Being optimistic and being proactive are not mutually exclusive things.

Capricorn

(December 22nd to January 20th)

You assume that you have to make a choice between being being a hard-working and successful person, or being happy and content. When in reality, you can absolutely be both, and that if you do it the right way, you can find a ton of joy, satisfaction, and contentment from a job well done. For you it’s less about big life changes and more about learning how to let go and enjoy the process of the things you are already doing. You’re a smart person and you’re good at what you do – so just trust that you’ll get things done, and figure out a way in the meantime to enjoy the experience and reward yourself with relaxation, time with friends, and even some material pleasures while you’re on your path to success.

Aquarius

(January 21st to February 18th)

You’re so passionate and fired up about so many important issues, and spending your time working for causes that truly matter to you is a great way to live your life. But sometimes you get so focused on what you’re doing that you forget to take some time to recharge yourself. You often confuse “relaxation” and “recharging your batteries” with being lazy or passive or useless. But what you need to remember, if you’re going to have enough energy and inspiration to keep going on your path, is that you need to take care of your mental self and give your mind a rest, the same way that you take care of your body and your physical self.

Pisces

(February 19th to March 20th)

You’re an incredibly compassionate, curious, and open person, which for the most part, is great. But it’s also lead you to be overly trusting with the wrong sorts of people, and when you get into a situation where you’re being treated poorly by someone, you tend to just assume you deserve it and that you got yourself into this mess, rather than taking the reins and deciding that you deserve to be treated better than this. And it not only applies to people – it applies to your work, your health, and your overall happiness. You need to stop settling and accepting mediocrity, and instead be a little more selfish and go after what makes you happy. It doesn’t mean you have to stop being compassionate and giving and warm. It just means you have to be as kind to yourself as you are to others. TC mark