Thought Catalog


17 Men On The Biggest Complaint They Have About Their Sex Life

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 08:00 PM PDT

Joshua Munoz
Joshua Munoz

1. “I hate using condoms. I don’t want to be an asshole and I definitely don’t want any STDs, but holy shit, they’re the worst. Takes away all the fun for me. Well, most of the fun.” — Jason, 26


2. “I want to use toys. My girlfriend’s vanilla, so she won’t even let me put fuzzy pink handcuffs on her. But I have some in the back of my closet, just in case.” — Alec, 21


3. “My girlfriend never cums. Ever. She said it’s not me, that she never orgasmed with any of her exes either, but it annoys the hell out of me. I just want to make it happen.” — Chad, 26


4. “I hate when I have to stop myself from cumming, because she didn’t cum yet. I know she deserves it as much as I do, but it’s hard to hold back my load sometimes.”  — Jeff, 29


5. “I don’t like looking her in the eyes. I know it’s supposed to make girls feel all warm and fuzzy, but it just makes me feel self-conscious.” — Hunter, 20


6. “I’m all for leaving my socks on. My girlfriend hates seeing them, but I get cold easily. Can’t help it. She shouldn’t be focused on my feet, anyway.” — Devin, 27


7. “Lingerie isn’t sexy. Complaining about it makes me sound like a douchebag, but my girlfriend wears it all the time and there’s always so many straps and bows and frills. I’d rather have her wear a tank top and shorts. Keep it simple.” — Ian, 22


8. “The last girl I fucked moaned like a porn star. And that’s not a compliment. She sounded ridiculous. Took me out of the moment.” — Carlos, 23


9. “Not into dirty talk. My girlfriend’s super talkative in bed, which most guys go nuts over, but I would like it so much better if it was silent. I just want to focus on what I got to do, you know?” — Garett, 27


10. “I’m not going to pressure my fiancĂ© into doing anything she’s uncomfortable with, but it sucks she’s not into anal. It’s all I want to do.” — Ed, 21


11. “She leaves a little airplane strip, but I wish she would shave it all off down there. I’d never ask her for that though. Don’t want to get slapped.” — Seth, 28


12. “I can’t stand going down on my girlfriend. I do it, because it’s the only way she can orgasm, but it’s… exhausting.” — Shane, 24


13. “Making out sucks. I’m not in middle school anymore. I don’t want to kiss a girl for an hour while my boner presses into her stomach. Just want her to move it along, but I know foreplay is important so… Guess I got to deal with it.” — Isaac, 19


14. “She won’t fuck me without music and I HATE IT. It’s not even good music. She puts on the radio, so we never know what’s going to pop on.” — Colton, 25


15. “I don’t like missionary. It’s impossible to avoid, but I don’t want to do all the damn work. When she’s on top, it’s so nice. I can be my lazy self.” — Ethan, 19


16. “My girlfriend’s cat is always in the room. I don’t want those big eyes staring at me while I’m on top of his owner. Fucking gross.” — Andre, 25


17. “No one ever has sex with me. I think that’s a pretty valid complaint right there.” — Max, 22 TC mark

He’ll Instantly Get Hard If He Sees You Wearing These 55 Insanely Sexy Things

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 07:00 PM PDT

Aaron Anderson
Aaron Anderson

1. Fishnets. 

2. Crotchless underwear. 

3. Thigh high socks. 

4. A button-up shirt with one too many buttons undone.

5. Yoga pants.

6. His oversized tee-shirt.

7. A push-up bra. 

8. His boxers.

9. A trench coat. With lingerie underneath. 

10. A corset. 

11. A silk robe. 

12. A lacy nightgown. 

13. Heels. With absolutely nothing else on. 

14. A cheerleading outfit. 

15. A cop costume. 

16. A see-through shirt. 

17. A backless dress. 

18. Nipple tassels. 

19. A candy G-string.

20. A towel. 

21. Vibrating underwear.

22. A sundress (without underwear on underneath). 

23. A thong. 

24. Babydoll lingerie. 

25. Leather boots.

26. Knee-high boots. 

27. Black tights. 

28. Short jean shorts. 

29. A bustier. 

30. A garter belt.

31. A cutout dress.

32. A ball gag. 

33. A blindfold.

34. A collar. 

35. Handcuffs. 

36. Whipped cream. 

37. His tie–with nothing else underneath it.

38. A french maid costume. 

39. A skimpy nurse costume. 

40. A bikini.

41. Red lipstick.

42. A little black dress.

43. A leather jacket.

44. A leather skirt.

45. A body stocking.

46. A sport’s bra.

47. See-through underwear.

48. Boyshorts.

49. Body paint.

50. A bralette.

51. A plunge bra.

52. A chemise.

53. A jersey for his favorite team.

54. A wedding ring (the one he gave you).

55. Absolutely nothing. TC mark

I’ve Found Something Republicans And Democrats Can Agree On: Tim Kaine Was Really, Really Hot

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 06:45 PM PDT

Hi, this is Tim Kaine. He’s Secretary Clinton’s running mate and currently serving as the junior United States Senator from Virginia.

timkaine
timkaine

This election has been, to put it nicely, a giant chaotic mess that feels a bit like the backstory to a dystopian future movie. So you know, that’s fun.

But the one thing I think people of all political parties can agree on is how goddamn fine Tim Kaine was as a young man.

Twitter
Twitter

ARE YOU SERIOUS?

Well, helloooooo Senator. It’s important to remember that no matter what we believe, we can all come together and find common ground in our collective thirst. No, but seriously. I’m so thirsty for that photo. TC mark

This Summer Actually Hurt Like A Motherfucker

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 06:00 PM PDT

Zach McCaffree
Zach McCaffree

One day you're smiling, watching his personal Snapchats which he only sends to you. And then the next day, it's reloading the page to see if he's online. You consistently bother yourself with the reminder that he's online, he's awake, he's breathing, he's a person, he exists… and that you're all of a sudden not in the loop anymore.

You never really expect the day will come when you get broken up with. It starts out similar to others and you wake up tired and groggy, as you do every Sunday. Except this time, you're in a foreign country because you're studying abroad.

You send good morning texts, however his morning is your late afternoon. Long distance is hard, but it's been 10 months of going to different schools 3.5 hours away and this is only a six-week separation. The day passes with casual conversation, each in your own world, but as much as you can share with each other.

And then you see a comment he made on another girl's Instagram. You don't want to be "crazy," but you trust him enough to ask for an answer. He blows up. He suggests you take a few days from each other; But as soon as you respond, there is no answer. For the next full day, he's absent. Until after numerous texts and calls, and a final, "I can't enjoy my first time outside of the country," grabs his attention.

Here it is.

"I'm with my thoughts," he says.

He calls you. And unfolds a two-month painful back and forth decision. He wants to invest himself in his own school. He says he feels like he was two different people caught between visiting you and establishing himself at school. He says he's putting his feelings on the side to do the "right," thing. We are over.

You hang up and you call him again the next day to present your side of an argument that doesn't exist. He has made his decision, but he still wants to keep you in his life. You can't say no. You feed into any way that you will still be with him, even if you're not "his." The worst part is you can't hate him. But you can't eat. Your body rejects health. Your body rejects any type of healing. You convince yourself this is going to be a scar left unhealed. You can hold onto this pain while you love him in whatever form he can take from you.

You text that night. You ask if the future still exists.

He explains that it does after college and reminds you that his father told him, "She is a woman you build a house with." It makes you feel somewhat better, but there are still tears you choke back. He always kept his promises and he says that this one is another one of his.

However too much happens in a week, a month, a year for you to know where you will stand then.

Till then- you will try to keep in touch. You will try to get over him, but only enough where you can stop the agony of stomach aching cries at night. You will keep him in your heart, with the alarm date set. You will have to distract yourself for a few years, while loving him from afar but also in a friendship. You promise yourself you can and will wait because this is worth the gamble.

You hope he does the same too. I hope he decides sooner. TC mark

11 Things People Don’t Realize You Are Doing Because Of Your Anxiety

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 05:00 PM PDT

Roberto Tumini
Roberto Tumini

1. Decline invites even when you really want to go.

Sometimes, anxiety can be so debilitating, that you can’t muster enough energy to go out. No matter how excited you were for the event beforehand, when the day actually comes and your anxiety is in full force, you say no. You don’t want to be a burden to anyone if you were to go, so the best choice for you is to not attend.

2. Obsess over things people normally would never think about twice.

You obsess over everything in your head. Most likely, the things you obsess about would never cross someone’s mind who doesn’t have anxiety. Maybe you obsess over a conversation you had last week, or the way your boss looked at you the other day. Maybe you obsess over the fact that your boyfriend hasn’t texted you in a day, and you worry if you said anything to upset him. Whatever it may be, it’s hard for people without anxiety to understand why you are so caught up in things that wouldn’t even matter to them.

3. Wake up early in the morning even when you’re tired.

Sleep is always an issue for you. It’s hard for you to get to sleep because you have so many things to digest and contemplate about the day you just had. Because your mind never seems to shut off, you never fail to wake up early with worries that have already entered your mind. You tend to wake up super early sometimes because you need to get going, and get everything done in a timely manner. Sleeping in is definitely a challenge for you because you can’t switch off your anxiety once you are already awake.

4. You constantly fear the worst scenario in every situation.

Before first dates, you are convinced it’s going to go terribly wrong. Before going on a trip, you envision everything falling apart. Before going on a road trip, you fear accidents. When you get sick, you get terrified that there’s something truly wrong with you. The list goes on and on, and it seems silly to others. But for you? It’s real fears. It’s real to you.

5. You replay conversations over and over in your head.

You try to avoid confrontation at all costs, because it causes your anxiety to get worse. When you have an argument or even a conversation that seems lovely to the other person, you continue to think about it after it’s said and done. You can never get it out of your head and you always think you said something wrong. It can really eat you up inside, and you always have to remind yourself that it’s just your anxiety talking, and everything is most likely fine.

6. You become more worried for yourself when people voice concern for you.

When people ask you if you are ok when you are having an anxiety attack, or when people come to you when you are way over your head with negative thoughts, it makes your anxiety worse. Of course they all mean well, but when others worry for you, it makes you think – “If they are worried, then I should worry even more about myself!”

7. You think it’s your fault when someone doesn’t reply right away.

Whether it’s your significant other, your best friend, or sister, you constantly get worked up when people don’t respond to you. People without anxiety would usually not pay it any mind, but for you it’s a huge deal. Usually when people don’t answer you or text you back, you think that it’s all of your fault. You always think that you did something wrong, when most likely, they are just terrible at communication.

8. You sometimes feel like you are having a breakdown every few days, when mention of the future is brought up.

The future is a huge trigger for you. You hate when people ask you what your plans are for the next five years, and it will cause you to retreat. Graduating from high school and college for most people is very exciting, but for you it can be incredibly daunting and scary. You hate when people talk about their own future because it makes you feel like you aren’t good enough.

9. You constantly compare your success to other people who are the same age as you.

You constantly see on Facebook that people your own age are getting their dream jobs, and it makes your head want to explode. You don’t want to compare yourself to others, but sometimes your anxiety gets the best of you and you can’t help it. You worry if you are ever going to measure up to them, and if your goals are ever going to come true.

10. You replay every mistake you make, and always beat yourself up over it.

Especially if you make a mistake at work, it can consume your thoughts and can ruin your day, or even week. You constantly strive to do the best that you can do, but when you accidentally send something that you shouldn’t, or when you do something you weren’t supposed to do in the office, you can get really down on yourself. Anxiety can truly be your worst enemy.

11. On some days you are too physically and mentally exhausted to get out of bed.

Some days, your anxiety can be so strong, that you truly feel unable to do anything but lie in bed and cry. At times, the world can be way too much for your mind to handle, and you’ll need to take a few days off and rest your mind and tired body. Anxiety can have a huge effect on our health, and it is not something to brush off to the side. It can be truly harmful, and a lot of people don’t understand the effects it can have on an individual. TC mark

This Is Why I Can No Longer Love You

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 04:00 PM PDT

 Bianca des Jardins
Bianca des Jardins

I can no longer continue to love you because I am tired.

I am grossly, ridiculously, overwhelmingly tired of being my own masochist. I'm tired of tying myself to the memory of a man that doesn't even give a shit. A man that doesn't even care about my feelings. I'm tired of the frequent bouts of distance and the way my feelings are thrown into a state of worried unbalance always wondering when we are going to reach our permanent ending.

I am tired of the nervous anticipation lodged in the pit of my stomach enacted by the slightest indication of disinterest I feel emanating from your resistance. I know that I am only hurting myself in the process and I am tired of this.

I am also tired of the wishful thinking that bubbles forth from my overactive imagination as I keep on replaying hopeful scenarios in my mind of better times between you and I when things were fine. Even now as I write, I imagine you looking over my shoulder, discovering how bad I want you and you wanting me equally if not just as obsessively as I want you. It makes me feel good to think of you wanting me this way. Somehow it quells the hunger temporarily.

I'm tired of the queasy anticipation I feel in my tummy waiting for you to text or call me. I'm tired of pretending I don't remember you cheating hoping to run out of these feelings while at the same time hoping to go back to the beginning. I still feel so many things for you, even this strange need to protect you, even from yourself.

However I can no longer continue to love a figment of my imagination because it does nothing to address the very real loneliness that rests somewhere between my intuition and my happiness.

I know that you will never be mine as you admitted to being polyamorous with a penchant for fucking different people all of the time. Just knowing that I have no one to call "partner" in this battlefield of love and life makes me feel sad sometime and I'm tired of feeling sad ALL THE TIME!

I'm tired of being my own stranger as I no longer recognize who I am anymore.

I think of you in everything I do and it's not that I am in love with you, but more so in love with the idea of loving you and how less alone I would feel by having you love me too.

It would make me feel like I am getting somewhere in the continuum of my arrested development as I have struggled to negotiate the isolation vs intimacy stage of my psychosocial development. Despite continued efforts and negotiation of prior stages, I have not been able to secure this stage. I want so badly to achieve this stage and you loving me meant that I achieved this stage but fuck that stage as loving you proved to be a downgrade that degraded me.

When I think of how I loved you, it made me feel weak, like a love sick, pathetic pulp of a man. Loving you and missing you feels like I am replaying my betrayal over and over again. Like a worn out needle scratching thin tendrils of vinyl off a broken record.

See the thing is, I can no longer love you because I am falling in love with my life and I no longer see you in it like I once did.

My emotions are starting to grow and take on a slightly logical tone. I now know that sometimes it's better to be alone than to love someone who does not love you at all. Sometimes you are the person you have been looking for all along and you don't need the partner that society tells you you do.

I am the love I have been seeking, the feelings that I felt were missing.

This doesn't mean that I won't miss who you were in the beginning but everything is ending. Everything! And endings are ok as they make room for more beginnings. Better beginnings. I will always cherish the time that we spent laughing and kissing and holding and eating. I will one day grow to make fun of these feelings as time has the tendency to add comic relief to the most painful aspects of our once upon a times grown stale by the reality of our here and now.

All I was to you was a pit stop in your exploration, a post adolescent experiment that ended as quickly as it began. This is why I can no longer love you. Just thought you should know this. TC mark

To The Girl That Saw More In Him Than He Could

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 03:00 PM PDT

@richie / www.twenty20.com/photos/9e988616-fa32-421e-b9cf-de5a2d5fc220
@richie / www.twenty20.com/photos/9e988616-fa32-421e-b9cf-de5a2d5fc220

I know how hard it is to see so many beautiful aspects in a person when they can’t see them, themselves. I know what it’s like to drive around all night wondering when he was going to see how well your aspects fit his perfectly, but the problem was that he couldn’t see them in himself, how could he possibly see them in you? and even if he did, how would he know that they matched his more than perfectly when he didn't even know he had them to begin with?

I know what it’s like to race your lips across his ego as they fall fast onto his broken soul, he always acted so confident only to let you in those small, and few glorious times, and then to tell you he didn’t think of himself as anything special. And you couldn't understand one bit of that because you saw such a glowing, raw, and confident, beautiful person. How could he not see it?

I know what it’s like to try to be that one person in his life that wouldn't leave no matter what even if he only saw you as a friend and nothing more, because at least he thought you were kind of something important. At least he thought of you as something. At least he acknowledged you as a part of his life.

I know what it’s like to have your heart drop to the deepest part of your soul when he tells you about another hook up he encountered, no matter how empty he said it had been. Only to wonder if that's what he thought of you. But you seemed to be in his life way more than all the others. So maybe, just maybe he felt something more for you. Maybe you were…. special??…

I know what its like to lay next to him and feel your soul breaking in half because after you give yourself to him you want him to hold you tighter than you hold your pillow, alone in your own bed on nights he doesn't call to have you over. 

I know what it’s like to catch every feeling he threw at you, making you think that there really was something, only to confuse you the next day and say he never wanted to give off those impressions.

I know what it’s like to love an imperfect, self conscious, scared man. A man that was afraid to let anyone but the devil on his shoulder in. Even though he wanted to his doubts and subconscious thoughts would never let him.

But I also know what it’s like to of been able to tell him I couldn't do it anymore, I mean sure, only half of my heart was sure about doing it, while the other half was shriveling up  and bleeding a waterfall out of my chest. I knew I had too. He would never come to terms with who he was enough to be able to love me. and I decided to love myself a little more, which seemed impossible at the time. But I couldn't wait, and neither can you. Love who you are more than who you see in someone else. TC mark

Reasons Why Some Women Are Always Rejected By Men

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 02:00 PM PDT

@polina.chydes
@polina.chydes

Every woman reading this should reflect right now on the dating patterns not only of themselves, but of their group of friends as well. Isn't it perplexing that some women have amazing luck dating, and other women are almost always rejected by the men they pursue?

Some of my female friends have virtually never been single. The moment they are, a new great guy scoops them up. They not only have zero trouble landing a man, but they're keeping their men interested, too.

Other female friends of mine are single by choice. They're essentially never rejected. They date around, they're wanted by many, and if anyone's rejecting anyone, it's them rejecting the men – rarely the other way around.

And then there's the women who seem to always get rejected. These women might not be single by choice, and if they are, it's only because of their fear of rejection. Their pattern seems to be that even if they do land a man, he'll lose interest quickly. Or, they can't even seem to get a man interested in them in the first place, as they're always turned down when they attempt any sort of pursuit.

If this sounds like you, keep reading, because the solution to end this pattern of rejection might be simpler than you think. Here are 6 reasons why you're always rejected by the men you're interested in and what you can do about it:

1. You're not giving the law of averages a chance to work its magic

In other words, you're not putting yourself out there enough – not by a mile. If you've been rejected by men a bunch of times, and you've developed a fear of rejection, you might be avoiding the dating world all together.

The law of averages indicates that the more "no"s you experience, the closer you'll get to a "yes". It's the magic of probability. In other words, the more dates you go on that don't work out, or the more times you're rejected, the closer you are to finding someone that it does work out with.

If you don't put yourself out there, you'll remain far away from that coveted "yes". Mr. Right isn't going to come knocking on your door while you're watching Stranger Things on Netflix, asking you if he can borrow a cup of sugar. Nobody does that anymore. Sorry, but you'll actually have to go out, meet people, swipe right and be open to dating men who might not be your typical type. Just be open and out there, stop hiding, and it'll happen.

2. You have a rejection attachment

If you're used to being rejected and disregarded, you might unconsciously seek out rejection because it's what you're familiar with. If you're seeking rejection without realizing it, you could have a psychological attachment to rejection.

When you identify yourself with disappointment, disapproval and rejection, you can develop what's known as a rejection attachment. Some of the women reading this article are guilty of ignoring the men who are interested in them, and instead going after the men who don't seem to be that interested. Perhaps this is proof of a rejection attachment. They know they'll likely get turned down since the men they're pursuing aren't showing any signs of approval or interest towards them, but since rejection is what they know, they're okay with it. They're swimming in familiar territory, and it's weirdly comfortable.

Women with a rejection attachment probably believe that they are undesirable, so they collect evidence that supports that belief. This evidence-gathering would of course include seeking out approval from those who aren't willing to give them any sort of validation, and pursuing those who aren't fully returning their affections.

3. Your attitude towards dating is generally quite negative

If you've had way too many horrible dating experiences to count, it can be tough to be optimistic about dating. Perhaps you've been dumped, cheated on, rejected, left for somebody 'better' and told you weren't good enough so many times that you now have a negative attitude towards dating.

The problem with not being positive is that you won't attract anything positive. You get what you give, so if you're giving off a negative attitude when it comes to all things dating related, it'll be picked up on – even if it's subtle or subconscious.

The law of attraction rightfully suggests that any limiting beliefs towards dating or love are stopping you from attracting a mate. If you believe that you're not good enough to be adored by someone, you will never be adored by someone. If you believe that you'll be rejected, you'll be rejected. Anytime you catch yourself thinking these negative beliefs, make sure to challenge them, because negativity is a bad habit that needs to be broken.

4. You have low self-esteem

Ok, you probably aren't expecting this, but I'm about to quote Fat Bastard from the Austin Powers movie. You probably remember the part where he says "I eat because I'm unhappy …. and I'm unhappy because I eat. It's a vicious cycle." Well, the same goes for rejection. You have low self-esteem from being rejected … and you're being rejected due to your low self-esteem. You can't let that cycle continue.

Men are not attracted to women with low self-esteem and no self-confidence. Confidence and self-love are attractive qualities, and that's the number one thing you need to work on if you want to find love. If you don't think you're a total catch, why would he think you are?

5. You're either too needy or too independent

Nobody enjoys either extreme. Being too needy is terrible because nobody likes feeling as though you're relying on them too much. It can be overwhelming for a man to think that he's fully responsible for your happiness because you 'need' him and rely on him so much.

However, he wants to be needed a little bit. He probably doesn't want you to be so independent that he can't even show off a little and fix a problem for you because you always want to fix it yourself. He probably doesn't want you to be so independent that you care way too little, and aren't effected by anything.

6. You're picking the wrong men

Don't pursue a guy who has someone else in the picture. Before you pursue a guy, it's best to get all the details when it comes to how 'single' he really is. If he's not over his ex-girlfriend, he's very recently single or the woman he really wants turned him down, it's best think twice about dating this guy.

It's pretty difficult to get a guy to commit to you if there's someone else he's thinking about. Make sure he's single, unattached and available in every way first. Ask around, and ask him. Straight up.

It's best to go after a guy who's available in every sense of the word. Seek men who are open to a relationship, healthy and happy. Don't pick the wrong men, and don't let them pick you. TC mark

Now I Can Only Tell The World About How We Broke

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 01:00 PM PDT

Roksolana Zasiadko
Roksolana Zasiadko

I wish I told the world about us. It was the kind of relationship that started out as friends. Not because we weren’t attracted to each other, but because we discovered something more valuable. Our personalities clicked like magnets. We had at least a year of platonic, meaningful time together. Whether in deep conversations about our passions for life, goals and aspirations, faith; or the no-brainer moments of (your) silly – and honestly corny – jokes I just couldn’t help but laugh at. Even with my complicated baggage, being with you was just so easy and light on my heart. All the cares in the world seemed to evaporate around you, and I wish the world knew.

I wish I told the world about that chilly February night. It was a Friday, I remember. We were in my favorite coffee shop when you had spoken about your intentions with me. As you reached for my hand the first time, I felt the tingling sensation of both excitement and fear, which I believe poets have personified in butterflies. But they weren’t just in my stomach; they were in every in of my body, every corner of my mind. I swear, my heart literally beat a little harder, the room got a little colder, but your hand was all the warmth I needed. That’s when I knew it was genuine. And as much as I tried postponing the moment in fear that I’ll scare you away, that was the moment I discovered your love.

I wish I told the world how scary it was for me. My mind wasn’t entirely sure how to respond, or if I even needed to. But then again, I also didn’t want to ruin the wonderful possibility of genuine happiness with you because I feared exposing the truth that fateful night. And so I did. I laid it all on the table – every tiny, however dark, secret I held that even my best friend doesn’t know I still think about; and all the little, no matter how petty, insecurities I had about being alone, about being with someone, about being lost.

I must have wiped that coffee table at least a dozen times as I spoke in trembling strength.

And inch by inch, I felt your emotions retreat. Your eyes were set on me, but your heart was slowly sneaking to hide behind the walls I was building. Every word was a brick delineating the line between you and me. My tears fall and I see your handkerchief wet with the pain I caused. Why? I asked myself, but I knew they were truths that needed to be said, even if I wasn’t ready to speak them, nor you, ready to hear them. My only wish then was that in the middle of my dark past, you find a glimmer of hope for the future.

I wish I told the world that you did. That you, my dear, in all the scraps and broken pieces of my past, unearthed a chest of beauty. That was the moment I knew your love was relentless. You embraced every single thing I confessed, and melted all the walls I worked so hard to build. Because that’s what you do; because that’s what your love meant.

Your intentions were so pure that no history of mine, nor yours, can even begin to scratch the surface of the endless possibilities of our future together.

I wish I told the world the beautiful little things you do for me. After a long days work, you’ll still agree to give my feet a rub but because you knew I wanted them. Every moment with you had time running like a maniac. One moment we’re greeting good morning over your cup of coffee and my cup of tea, and the next, we find ourselves having to say good night again. Hours were just a snap of the fingers; days were a brush of the hair. Time never seemed enough with you.

I wish I told the world about us, and now I can’t. I don’t regret a thing, you told me. And I know you were telling the truth. The world would call it complicated, but really, that’s just how people describe anything they do not comprehend. They will never understand the adventure we had, and where, how, and why it had brought us here. Right here, right now. But then again, we don’t need the world to validate the truth of what we have – of what we had. And somehow, that gives me great joy that in a world of thousands of people, we had us. The beauty and indescribable relationship that was, is, and will always be, us.

I wish I told the world.

Now, I can only tell the world how sorry I am for breaking your heart. TC mark

We’re Only Fooling Ourselves When We Say We Don’t Want Love

Posted: 04 Oct 2016 12:00 PM PDT

 Natalie Allen
Natalie Allen

What's the point of having everything when you have no one?

Sometimes the beautiful things in life are less beautiful when you have no one to share them with.

Sometimes the best of nights turn cold when you have to come home to an empty house and you have to sleep alone.

Sometimes the darkest hours seem longer when you have no hand to hold.

Sometimes your biggest fears are magnified when you have no one to go to or a hug that makes you feel safe.

Sometimes the phone has no use when you don't have someone you can call or text randomly, when you don't have someone who makes you smile.

And sometimes you can have everything and still feel empty if you have no one. Sometimes it's all about that one person who can turn your world around.

They tell us that in time, we'll find that person, that in time, it will all be better, that timing is everything and we should just focus on ourselves — and we do, we act like we don't want anyone, we act like we're happy on our own, we act like loneliness doesn't haunt us but then we look back and realize that this whole time something was missing, there's a void that can only be filled with someone else.

That we are not born to just keep doing things by ourselves, to ourselves, we are not born to keep suppressing our needs in order to survive.

What's the point of surviving when no one truly cares about your life?

Because the louder things get, the busier life gets, the more you long for stillness, for comfort, for safety and for peace. And you can't find them in your room at night because sometimes being alone in your room brings all the demons that terrify you.

Sometimes your place of stillness can be your place of destruction when you have no one by your side.

Because the happiest people are not those who have everything, they're the ones who have someone to go home to, someone they love, someone that makes them smile and someone that makes them realize that life is only good when you're sharing it with someone else.

The void in your life is not something that you lack or something you can fill on your own, this void is your heart and soul crying for someone to complement them — crying for someone to bring them back to life. TC mark